~~ Memoirs of My Unwritten Memories ~~

Ouh rindu.

2010-06-24T21:13:00.000+08:00

It's been a week ++ now. 10 days to be precise. And still counting. Wonder how long it gonna be.

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Alejandro.

2010-05-05T20:42:00.001+08:00

It's just simply an awesome feeling when the perfect song is out at the perfect time! :)

P/s - At this point I gotta choose, nothing to loose.

Alejandro - Lady GaGa

I know that we are young.
And I know you may love me.
But I just can't be with you like this anymore.
Alejandro.

She's got both hands
in her pockets.
And she wont look at you,
Won't look at you

She hides true love.
En su bolsillo
She's got a halo around her finger.
Around you.

You know that I love you boy.
Hot like Mexico, rejoice.
At this point I gotta choose,
nothing to loose.

Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Alejandro.
I'm not your babe.
I'm not your babe, Fernando.

Don't wanna kiss, don't wanna touch.
Just smoke one cigarette and hush.
Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Roberto.

Alejandro.
Alejandro.
Ale-ale-jandro.
Ale-ale-jandro. [2x]

(Just stop. Please. Just let me go. Alejandro. Just let me go.)

She's not broken,
She's just a baby.
But her boyfriend's like a dad, just like a dad.
and all those flames that burned before him.
Now he's gonna find a fight, gonna cool the bad.

You know that I love you boy.
Hot like Mexico, rejoice.
At this point I gotta choose,
nothing to loose

Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Alejandro.
I'm not your babe.
I'm not your babe, Fernando.

Don't wanna kiss, don't wanna touch.
Just smoke one cigarette and hush.
Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Roberto.

Alejandro.
Alejandro.
Ale-ale-jandro.
Ale-ale-jandro. [2x]

Don't bother me.
Don't bother me. Alejandro
Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Fernando.

I'm not your babe.
I'm not your babe, Alejandro.

Don't wanna kiss, don't wanna touch. Fernando.
Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Alejandro.
I'm not your babe.
I'm not your babe, Fernando.

Don't wanna kiss, don't wanna touch.
Just smoke my cigarette and hush.
Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Roberto.

Alejandro.
Alejandro.
Ale-ale-jandro.
Ale-ale-jandro. [2x]

Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Alejandro.
I'm not your babe.
I'm not your babe, Fernando.

Don't wanna kiss, don't wanna touch.
Just smoke one cigarette and hush.
Don't call my name.
Don't call my name, Roberto.

Alejandro.

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Mencarut!

2010-05-05T13:52:00.001+08:00

Hish! Rasa nak mencarut! Carut! Carut! Carut! Pergh! Memang dasar manusia x kenang budi. Tp nak buat cam ne kan? Itulah lumrah manusia, bile senang semuanya lupa, bila susah baru la tau nasib. Apa-apa pown, aku ucap good luck and all the best la for everything. I think I've done my part (maybe not so perfect, but at least I did). Tak harapkan apa2 balasan pown, seriously okay? I give up and I don't give a damn anymore (ye ye je aku nieh, jap lg lembut balek hati). Take care! Kthxbye!

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Ku Juga Mencintaimu.

2010-04-21T03:54:00.000+08:00

You used to send/give/dedicate this song to me. And here, I'm giving it back to you, wahai sang Arjuna si hati kaca. ;)

Sukarnya 'tuk ku melupakan
Sinar matamu yang menawan
Terbayang-bayang tiap masa
Senyuman mu menggoda

Kehangatan terasa di jiwa
Tika kau lafaz kata cinta
Nafas terhenti seketika
Seakan sukar ku percaya
Ooh.oh.

Ku juga mencintai dirimu
Mengapa sukar ku luahkan
Bukan sengaja ku menahan
Bibir membeku lidah terkelu

Ku juga mencintai dirimu
Kau amat sempurna buatku
Bukan saja aku biarkan
Kan ku ucap jua padamu

Sukarnya untukku ucapkan
Ku takut akan kehilangan mu
Akan ku buat segalanya
Untukmu kekasihku

Cuma satu yang belum terluah
Kalimah cinta kau nantikan
Bila masa dan ketika
Tidak dapat ku menjawabnya
Ohhh...

Ku juga mencintai dirimu
Mengapa sukar ku luahkan
Bukan sengaja ku menahan
Bibir membeku lidah terkelu

Ku juga mencintai dirimu
Kau amat sempurna buatku
Bukan saja aku biarkan
Kan ku ucap jua padamu

Semalaman ku menunggu panggilanmu
Pabila terdengar suaramu
Ku terlupa segalanya

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Right Here Waiting.

2010-04-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

Not so long ago, erm wait. Okay. Very long long time ago, hee. Hurm.

Currently I'm listening to "Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting" and suddenly I remembered there was one time, was chatting with my Richard Marx Malaysia. Yes, I have my own version of Richard Marx, and he's Malaysian. Dunno whether his voice is as good as the real Richard Marx or not. LoL! :P Why I called him my Malaysian Richard Marx if I never hear he himself sing that song to me? Easy! That's because we used to chat and "sing". And I mean sing here is, we typed lyrics, phrase by phrase and the song we "sang" was "Right Here Waiting". There's also another song by Air Supply but the one I remember the most is "R H W". Such good old days eyh lad? ;) I dunno whether you remember this or not, ouh well, so I'm dedicating this song, again to you cuz I will be right here waiting for you. :)

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Marah.

2010-03-25T18:46:00.001+08:00

Dia marah (lagi). Sigh. I think I went overboard. Really am sorry. :(

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He's back!

2010-03-17T23:45:00.001+08:00

Ngee! He's back! ^.^ *jumping for joy*

P/s - that boy is a monster! He ate my heart. :)

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Suka.

2010-03-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

Suka la tgk mereka! Especially yang lama-lama tuh! Jealous pown ada juga. Hee.
Mungkin sebab diri sendiri tak ada. Takpe Iklil. Your time will come. ;)
Have faith. :)

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Kau harus ada.

2010-03-15T11:01:00.001+08:00

Kau (orang) harus ada
Kau (orang) harus ada di mana tempat ku berada
Kau (orang) harus ada
Kau (orang) harus ada bersamaku

Kau (orang) harus ada ( harus ada di sisi )
Kau (orang) harus ada di mana tempat ku berada
Kau (orang) harus ada ( harus ada di sebelah )
Kau (orang) harus ada bersamaku

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Zen.

2010-03-14T21:43:00.001+08:00

I've found my place of zen. :)
Yes! Yes! Manage to remove the huge massive heavy burden off from my shoulder! Hee. Love the feeling (although it's only temporary) but none the less. It's really comforting!

And yes, I shall visit thee again! ;)

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Show me.

2010-03-14T02:11:00.001+08:00

Carolina Liar - Show Me What I'm Looking For

Show Me What I'm Looking For
Wait, I'm wrong
Should have done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist
So show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

Don't let go
I've wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Just save me from being confused
Wait, I'm wrong
I can't do better than this
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

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Music.

2010-03-13T19:17:00.000+08:00

Ouh damn! I need a new playlist pronto! Seems that every single song in my playlist remind me of THEM! Haha! Grr!

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Rindu.

2010-03-11T20:30:00.001+08:00

Ouh sangat rindu mereka. Mereka! Saya sgt rindu! Rindu! Ouh nak huggies! Nak sleepover! Rindu nak bergossip! Nak luahkan perasaan! Nak peluk2 sampai x nak lepas! :'(

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Shooting Star.

2010-03-08T02:51:00.000+08:00

Hee. Jiwang mood ON! Surf2 page org then end up at Balqis nyer page. Terjumpe lagu "Air Traffic - Shooting Star". Lagu yg best! ;)

Snippet of the lyrics.
You're just too good to lose and I can't refuse.
Don't you know who you are, you're my shooting star.

Well literally, like shooting star. You can only wish for it. You can only watch it from far. And when you are lucky enough, you can have a good sight of it.

So this is dedicated to you, my shooting star. xoxo, <3

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Sagil.

2010-03-07T12:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to Sagil. It was okay. Tp sebab da terbiasa mandi di kawasan sungai yg air nya dalam, bile sampai sana, sume air cetek. Bummer! So kurang la mandi manda. Da la daki gunung tuh penat x ingat dunia. Kaki menggelatar lak tuh. Haiya! And paling x best bile ingat iPhone masuk air. :( so far okay lagi sume. Still functioning despite time awal2 tuh cam something's wrong with the lighting. Kelip2. Cuak ouh! Pastu annoying rabbit buat hal! Yes! I annoyed u and u irritate me! Fair enough? Haha! Love u BFF! Tomorrow is Monday and I got a day off! Hee! Mau pi buat visa! Yeay! Japan! Here I come! <3

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Kepanasan.

2010-03-07T12:06:00.001+08:00

Hari nieh sangat sangat SANGAT panas okay! Seriously. Normally mandi gune water heater di pagi hari. But exceptional for today, I took my bath without switching it on and on top of that, I was wishing the water was colder. Damn man. Rase mcm nak mandi air batu! Haha! Then bile sampai hospital (jap lg menggigil lah nieh sbb penggunaan air-cond terlebih-lebih!), sume org ckp bende same. Infact, Ajai bawak botol air (700ml) and it's only 8.15 and it's already left like 200ml perhaps?

P/S - post nieh sebenarnyer few days ago but due to lack of Internet connection. Kene la postponed until today. :)

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Miserable.

2010-03-02T09:39:00.000+08:00

Ouh woke up with the feeling of the most miserable yg teramat sangat. T_T.

Td apply cuti for this coming Monday. Nak pegi buat visa. Yes, kalo nak pi Jepun, although nak gi for few days pown, kene buat visa. Then bile check bilangan cuti. Wahaha! Bertambah miserable. I need more of them. Darn it!

Time2 miserable nieh, teringat "wise man" pernah ckp. Kalo ikutkan sgt miserable tuh, ur days will get from bad to worst. So have to do something about it. I need distraction! Damn! Bowling peeps? :D

Minggu nieh balek lg. Last 5 weeks pown balek without fail. Malas btol nak drive. Byk sgt plan and stuff to do back home.

Gotta hit the bed peeps! Sleepy! Nitey nite! Sweet dreams! xoxo <3 I.miss.you

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1 2 3 4 5.

2010-02-28T05:28:00.001+08:00

Ouh 5 seconds of happiness. Wish I could arrive there earlier (much much more earlier!) :(. Nitey nite. Sweet dreams.

xoxo, <3

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Teruja.

2010-02-27T19:23:00.001+08:00

Td surf2 page org or dengan kata laen, stalking. :P teruja sgt sbb mereka nieh da ade blog sendiri. Ni yg bertambah semangat nak mem-blog balek. Excited tp still x de idea. I guess from now on, nak jdkan blog tempat luahan hati la. :P

Anyway. Td makan dimsum ngan mama. Sian mama. Ngidam dimsum. So merayau la beberapa tempat. In the end jumpe tempat area Sunway Damansara. Thx to Paie that is. :) jap lg nak dinner kat TGIF The Gardens with my cousins and her fantastic friends. Gotta go and get ready. Toodles.

xoxo, <3

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Testing.

2010-02-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

I just found out about this application on app store and I'm giving it a try. Hee. It's been awhile ey? Well, dunno what to blog about really. :P

p/s - vain moment at work. :3

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judge me (if u dare!).

2009-09-12T02:35:00.001+08:00

judge me (if u dare!).

its been too long, well not THAT long since meaningful lyrics really touch my heart (really deep deep down). was listening to either fly.fm or hitz.fm last night and out of nowhere these 2 songs just suddenly popped at the same time. haha! yeah~ they did.

1. Paramore – Ignorance

2. Black Eyed Peas – Meet Me Halfway

okay. theres a different story for each song. i mean the lyrics of course. thats y im blogging about it. u dun see me ~~running~~ blogging about each and new song do u?

okay first of all, “Paramore – Ignorance”. yes i know. i promised to myself, wuts done is done. ive even already let it out once and for all. but u cant really blame me if i want to relate my life wif the new latest single right? haha! seriously, still wanna blame someone? blame Paramore then for this uber awesome song. =) here is the lyrics for u readers. wahaha! x)

Paramore – Ignorance

If I'm a bad person,
You don't like me.
Well I guess I'll make my own way,
It's the circle,
A mean cycle.
I can't excite you anymore.
Where's your gavel, your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life.

Chorus 1.
Don't wanna hear your sad songs.
I don't wanna feel your pain,
When you swear it's all my fault.
Cause you know we're not the same.
Yeah!
We're not the same
Yeah!
No we're not the same,
Yeah, The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good,
It's good
It's good

Chorus 2.

Well You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you ~~sir~~ miss.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.
You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you ~~sir~~ miss.
I'll guess I'll go.
I'll be best on my way out.

Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

This is the best thing that could've happened.
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it.
It's not a war.
No, it's not a rapture.
I'm just a person, but you can't take it,
The same tricks that, that once fooled me.
They won't get you anywhere.
I'm not the same kid from your memory.
Well, Now I can fend for myself.

Chorus 1 & 2.

Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

Chorus 2.

so wut? im telling myself, this is sooooooo high school. apparently it is. childish. haha. who cares. im EXCITED and im doing this for the lulz. im literally jumping now. woot woot! =D

mind u, this is my bloody blog. i can write anything i ~~fcuking~~ want here. ;) hehe. done. case close. x)

okaaay. i shall move on to my 2nd song. its “Black Eyed Peas – Meet Me Halfway”

from this song, i would like to emphasize, erm, this,

“I can't go any further then this, ouh, I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish”

yeap, the line just say it all. sigh~ <3

p/s – hye you, i love you. u do know that right?

While writing this, I was listening to "Meet Me Halfway" by The Black Eyed Peas

sedar x sedar.

2009-09-08T02:42:00.001+08:00

sedar x sedar.

kite ingatkan org x perasan. tp sebenarnyer org perasan.

kite ingatkan org x sedar. tp sebenarnyer org sedar.

heee! saya suke suke suke!

saya terharu!

terima kasih ye! =)

p/s – mau terbang tinggi-tinggi (dan jauh-jauh~) bole x? x)

While writing this, I was listening to "Dirty Funk" by Steve Appleton

sick.

2009-09-06T07:23:00.001+08:00

sick.

lil,

“stop pretending will u? arent u getting sick and tired of this? havent u learn ur lesson already?”

“but the world is not giving me a space to breath”

“nobody said its gonna be easy”

“bummer!”

this is a conversation wif my inner self. damn it. fever is making me mental.

hati sgt berkecamuk. ade pelbagai perasaan. sedih bercampur gembira. sume sume la ade. ckp je. haih~

While writing this, I was listening to "She Wolf" by Shakira

me + you = us.

2009-09-04T03:52:00.001+08:00

me + you = us.

There's certain point in life when u get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up. It's realizing that u don't need certain people and their crap.

yes. the quote says it all. well, gotta admit, i have a friendship problem lately. seriously. i dunno wut the hell went wrong. cuz all this while, as far as im concern, it went kinda smooth though. asked again and again wut did i do wrong ( or maybe its just u? ), but still no answer to that and the questions remain unanswered. and yes, im tired (finally) and its really exhausting. tired of constantly blaming myself, tired of saying sorry for no apparent reason, tired of trying to take care of ur (fragile) feelings. well, actually i think i know wut is it all about, but u know wut, like i told u before, i dun like to assume things and i prefer to hear it from ur own lips. so to u, whoever u are out there, heres to u. =)

tak nak kawan sudah, ~~(namanya dollah, teteknya sebelah)~~. haha! dah hulur tangan untuk salam, sambut atau tidak bukan lagi masalah saya :)

okay. when one door closes another door opens. we move on. in this case, its me. i will move on, im moving on and i’ve moved on. ;)

when this sort of crap bullshit happen, then only i tend to open my eyes wider, take a step back, try to figure wuts been happening around me all this while and grab any opportunities coming my way. maybe at times i was too preoccupied wif myself and too blind to notice a rainbow after a stormy weather. heh. sorry about that though.

buat ape nak pening2 kepala pikir kan? bazir masa dan tenaga sahaja. =P

Each minute that you are upset about something, you lose sixty seconds of happiness!

lin, i tak lupa, tanak lupa pown, tp itulah kengkadang, manusia. haha. TERlupa juga in the end.

saya kengkadang lupe,

♥ mereka yg sentiasa menemani saya pergi jalan2 makan angin sepanjang malam tanpa arah tuju sampai balik pukol 7 pagi.

♥ mereka yg menjadikan saya sebagai saya sejak saya berumur 14 tahun.

♥ mereka yg tolong coverkan saya bile buat masalah dengan mama saya.

♥ mereka yg menjd school mate dr sekolah rendah hingga ke sekolah menengah.

♥ dia yg menjadi tempat mengadu naseb bila saya sedih, tp akhirnya bende yg die slalu suro saya buat ialah tido sahaja. LoL.

♥ dia yg sentiasa 24/7 dengan saya. pening kepala dengan drama saya. ;P

♥ dia yang merupakan soul-mate or destined to be room-mate saya yang mengalami nasib yg sama dengan saya.

♥ mereka yg saya kenal sejak 2 tahun lalu tp menjd rapat sejak kebelakangan ini. ;)

♥ mereka yg teman pergi berbuka puasa baru2 ini di Pizza Hut, One Utama.

♥ mereka yg juga teman pergi berbuka puasa di area Hang Tuah Mall.

♥ mereka yg teman berbuka puasa di korridor and kaki lima bangunan. =P

♥ mereka yg teman tgk perlawanan bola di 2 lokasi yg berlainan sambil berbalas2 text. ;P

People come together and move apart.

yeap. thats true. but believe me, those people i mention earlier, i assure u, they r worth to keep (safely inside a box, wrapped nicely and wif a ribbon on top =P). thx for being part of me and my life. <3

last but not least,

The weak at heart cannot forget offences. Forgiveness is a sign of strength.

p/s – i forgave u (past tense). yeap. for making me such a mess and trying (really) hard to forget about it ;). cheers~!

p/p/s – huge credits to Nur Lina Radzi sebab saya pinjam ayat2 dia. x)

While writing this, I was listening to "She Wolf" by Shakira

bodoh.

2009-08-25T02:52:00.001+08:00

bodoh.

yes people. this is a rage post. who cares. yes. i am mad. super mad indeed!!

bengangnyer kalo dipikir2kan balek. i feel like i live around stupid people nowadays. stupid people revolves around me. regardless la how old they are. BODOH. tau tak BODOH!!

well, maybe tgh pms skarang thats y la jd cam nieh. *there goes my full 30 days puasa*

anyhow, this post is dedicated especially to this stupid private company who is in charge of my building which where im currently studying and staying at. i dunno la wut u guys wanna say about this, but this is MY blog and i can voice out my personal opinion.

nak tau kenapa AKU bengang sgt? (yeah, im using “AKU” cuz im super furiously mad right now, and f.y.i, i rarely use aku) ouh well, here goes nothing.

1. Makan

dulu, dikala sem 1 and sem 2, we as in me n my college mates will have trouble with finding decent food to eat. mane tak nyer, makanan da la mahal then yg paling menyedihkan, they even serve lauk basi to us. for those yg ade transportation sendiri, so i guess its not really a big deal la kalo nak carik makan kat tempat laen, yg tak de? sian gak la. all this happen cuz we were the first batch, so byk la kemudahan x disediakan lagi. so, agak bengang dgn cafeteria yg agak mencekik darah, we brought up that thing to our admin. then after months of struggling, we finally dpt couple (pakcik & makcik) yg jual nasi campur during lunch hour and nasi goreng2 during dinner time. they are very friendly and love to make jokes wif us. after couple of weeks beli makanan ngan dorang, kami jd rapat and we love them so much. mane tak nyer, apart from the VERY reasonable price to a VERY unique and delicious foods. maka bertambah2 la kami sayang dorang. well, as time goes by, ade la super jr. and super duper jr. yg masuk our college, yg x reti dan x paham penderitaan dan penyeksaan yg kami alami sebelum nieh. so, i heard, (nieh confession dr mulut pakcik & makcik tuh sendiri ye!) some of them took advantage over that very kind-hearted pakcik. they took the food but promised wif pakcik that they will pay it later that evening, tp semua tuh hanya bohong belaka. bukan sekali dua dorang buat cam tuh tp byk kali, even sampai pakcik tuh da x tahan dgn kerugian yg dialaminya, he even asked his wife to take over bab bayar2 nieh. pakcik x ley buat sume bende nieh sebab die terlampau baek hati while his wife agak tegas la. then, nak dikaitkan dgn stupid private company that i mention earlier, of course la, whole college and hostel area tuh milik dorang. so kalo nak berniaga, mesti la kene mintak permission, which is cam standard protocol lah kan? tp kalo nak ikut protocol bangang ko (referring to stupid private company) tuh sgt, pls be reasonable lah weyh. da la suro bayar rm300 monthly for wut? tapak kosong? cuz pakcik tuh bawak van and bile die nak berniaga, die bawak barang2 berniaga die sendiri as in the meja untuk letak hidang makanan, and payung yg digunakan untuk berteduh dr sinaran matahari atau hujan and few other things. okay fine. then yg ko charge dorang rm300 monthly during our semester break buat ape. BODOH. mane dorang nak cekau duit nak bayar sewa tapak bulanan tuh. BODOH! okay. x abes dgn tuh. dah tau ade org berniaga kat area ko, yg ko bg org laen berniaga kat tempat same buat ape? curik periuk nasi dorang kowt. takkan nak buat secluded area tuh jd satu tempat yg competitive? serious weyh. apa pasal bengap bodoh sgt ko nieh? alah. jawapan die x susah. nak tau sebab ape? ko tau duit duit duit je kan? mane ko tau naseb org susah atau senang? yg penting duit. FCUK!

2. Hostel

kalo nak tau, the current building that im staying at now is made of cheap and non-quality materials. mane tak nyer, baru tinggal 6 bulan. bangunan retak disana-sini. plug tercabut2. bahaye kowt kalo x extra careful sebab exposed dgn litar electric cam tuh je. kipas yg ade sume rosak, okay x sume like only 5% dr sume kipas yg dah di-install untuk kegunaan pelajar sahaje yg berfungsi. the remaining 95% rosak, malah walaupown telah mengadu tentang kerosakan yg dialami, still tiada tindakan selanjutnyer. yer la. kipas made in china, plus brand ntah ape2. mane tak nyer kan? ouh and plus, tilam yg disediakan, rasenyer lah kan span mencuci pinggan lg tebal. hurm. x de rase2. mmg confirm span mencuci pinggan aku kat umah lg tebal dr tilam yg disediakan untuk tidur. ape la naseb kan? dpt organisasi yg hanya mementingkan duit dr hal ehwal penggunanya. nieh dunia oi. takkan dibawa sampai mati de. okay, nieh experience sendiri. my fan dlm my room rosak. so pergi la mengadu kat pihak atasan. then they asked sesape yg ade kerosakan, mintak isi the bloody form. so isi la. then after 1 freaking semester, still x de ape2 perubahan. kipas tetap rosak. ade la dorang dtg jenguk SEKALI tp sekadar jenguk je ke? cuz ade la hari tuh, dorang dtg tgk bilik, so i grab the opportunity to asked my warden, yet another stupid people around me.

i asked, “pn F*****, pn nak baiki kipas nieh ke?” she replied “tak de la, nak tgk je dulu kerosakan die” sambil tuh die belek2 ntah ape jenis kertas/surat. ko ingat kipas tuh ley dibaiki bile bawak form bodoh tuh kemana2 ke? asal? x caye kat kami ke? gile ke ape? x kan sengaje nak mengadu kipas rosak padahal kipas x rosak? ingat kami nak sgt ke attention ke dr ko tuh? x de maknenyer. buang mase lg ade la. hish!

still, they blamed me for not doing the follow-up thingy. kire nyer aku nieh tau report je tp x buat follow-up. hurm. yer la. may fault la. haish. malas nak ungkit da. i just want to get it over wif once and for all. so yeah. partly myself to be blamed at.

then naek next semester, i found out bilik depan x de penghuni, disebabkan my room sgt bahang panas yg tiada tandingannya (yes, saye tau api neraka lg panas. so jgn nak bising2) i paid rm900 per semester. so i have the right la. so i decided to move my mattress and pillow only into the room yg kosong tuh. i have easy access because pihak yg berkenaan tidak mengambil langkah2 prevention yg membolehkan pelajar2 seperti aku nieh untuk menceroboh bilik yg tidak ada penyewa or pelajar seperti MENGUNCI BILIK tersebut. (like i said earlier, dorang gune cheap materials and stuff, nieh pown contribute untuk aku buat keje jahat cuz tombol pintu tuh da rosak. even certain pintu x de tombol) haha! tuh la. pentingkan duit lg. gune la barang murah n x berkualiti lg. sbb ko mmg suke kan? then senang2 ckp kiteorg vandalize barang korang. serious shit weyh! BODOH! hurm. technically the word “menceroboh” is used bila bilik tuh dikunci then someone else buka without permission. kan? kan? kan? help me out la here. haha! okay. okay. i admit. that was WRONG. totally wrong. but wut they did even worst. ape kes weyh? x de notis, x de official letter, terus dpt “love letter”. surat yg mengatakan aku nieh budak plg sial sekali la kat kolej tuh. sebab surat tuh sort of mcm hearing letter la. kire court case la. tp college nyer je. x de la sampai court yg btol2. rase2 nyer lah kan, correct me if im wrong here alright, in order for u to send sort of “court letter”, mesti ade notis dulu kan? reminder perhaps? nieh tak. tup! tup! dpt mcm tuh je. ive been forced to go to the hearing, if i failed to do that, i will be expelled. WUT THE FISH!! haih. susahnyer hidup. and plus berbalek kepada kipas, i told my mom during the semester break that i badly need to repair my fan in my room. well, at first she said no cuz ala because of the stupid protocol tuh la, org luar x ley repair, kene org sendiri yg ley repair. pergh. berzaman la kalo nak tunggu kan? but then die ckp yes pulak. so i thought of doing it during cuti, sebab nak avoid all these nonsense la. siap da sampai melake tuh then suddenly she changed her mind. asked me to wait for another few days sebab by that time, class da start. haha! mmg salah la buat time tuh. terkantoi la pulak. mcm2 hal. so seperti biase, buat muke tebal pergi la mengadap pihak atasan. haha! funny. u know wut, i didnt even bother to reimburse from ko la. aku x ingin pown duet ko tuh. x kempunan pown. (if thats the whole reason for u not letting us to fix our bloody fan ourselves. but no, according to my pihak atasan, if suro org luar repair, it might lead to another problem. haiyo. ape2 la. all i know that my fan is working perfectly fine right now and that thx to my mom yg baek hati bagi duit untuk repair. haha!)

actually pasal nieh, da berbuih da mulut mamaku nasihat kat aku. yes. my mother taught me really well. die slalu pesan jgn terlampau extrovert sgt. lantak pi la ape org laen nak buat atau ckp. kite buat bodo je. tp itulah, its just that. anak perempuan die sekor nieh, jenis x reti bahase and tak nak dengar kate. nak lawan jer tau. haha! adoi. “darah muda la katekan”, bak kate Pn. Morita, my lecturer atau dgn kate laen, she acts like our mother here in college sebab die constantly worried about us 24/7. haha. thx madam. we owe u our life! muah~ <3

3. Laundry?

okay. nieh ape la baghal, bengap bodoh, bangang sgt ko nieh? suke suki je suro aunty cleaner tuh buat laundry ko. ko tau x aunty tuh di-hire untuk buat keje die la as in deal wif cleaning things. speaking about cleaning, ur bloody laundry is not included okay. da la byk gile baju yg ko suro cuci tuh. 2 washing machines yg sarat dengan baju. out of curiosity, i asked her “ aunty, aunty cuci baju kat sini ke? ” then she replied “ mana ada, ini BOS punya ” kinda sad when the aunty cleaner herself told me “ kita nieh kuli, dorang tuh bos (stupid private company ), so kita x boleh lawan la. x bole buat apa2. sebab dorang itu Dato’ ” ya Rabbi, x mcm lemah lak jantung bile dengar aunty tuh ckp cam tuh. BODOH! kan da kene free bodoh. just because ko ade title Dato’, that doesnt mean u have the right to dominate other people. pls la. have some respect ley x? yes. that aunty cleaner might not as same “level” as u are, but she is still a human being. BODOH! x de otak ke? ingat keje die x penat ke? angkut sampah dr tingkat 4 hostel bawak turun. then suro buat laundry lg. bodoh la. OMG! geramnyer. ko kan DATO’! ape salahnyer hantar baju ko tu pegi dobi. berlambak la dobi kat melake nieh. aku student pown pegi dobi,. ko lg la, Dato’ kan?

sigh. u can judge if u want to judge. its ur right to do so. i rest my case.

marilah test patience saye. tgk ley tahan ke tidak?

p/s – sorry for the rude and harsh words. im angry. im mad. and x puase. (kih kih kih, ley la buat keje jahat eyh) okay2. just kidding. again. big, huge sincerely sorry from me. Salam Ramadhan. =)

While writing this, I was listening to "This Is Usually The Part Where People Scream" by Alesana

kurang genius.

2009-08-17T17:03:00.001+08:00

kurang genius.

*edited for easier reading*

lyas: Any1 wants to tag along to Bukit Cahaya tomorrow?

lil: lyas cuti ke?

lyas: cuti aa..mid semester break..

lil: damn. no wonder sound so free. =.='' H1N1 ar? napo lambat sgt. >.<'' (kami budak UITM da cuti awal sebab byk sgt kes H1N1)

lyas: kitorg free of h1n1..sbb tu baru cuti..korg sume da cuti awal sbb byk penyakit..hahaha.. :P (budak UM cuti lambat sebab konon2nya sume budak UM free H1N1. cet poodah!) =P

lil: ade ape kat sane?

lyas: ade 4 season nye tempat..tp skarang ni xtau musim ape..dgr cite fall..so seronok amik gamba :D nnt lyas tag lil gamba lawa..

lil: euw. nieh nak rase dengki nieh. asal ade 4 season lak? HOW COME? malaysia da berubah kedudukan dr benua asia ke benua eropah ke?

lyas: adeh..kurang genius gak remaja zaman skang ni..die gune hot house a macik..control temperature n climate dlm tuu..kalau winter bole men snow :D

haha! there u go. that shows how “functioning” my brains are.

While writing this, I was listening to "Love Drunk" by Boys Like Girls

happy drug.

2009-08-17T16:19:00.001+08:00

happy drug.

fcuk la. seriously i hate HATE hate this feeling.

to be or not to be.

to do or not to do.

y is it SO DAMN BLOODY HARD?

damn. syaza was right. i think i kinda need happy drug that last FOREVER.

hurm. where shall i get one ey?

the irregular heart beat, the heart aching, the shivering.

i desperately need to put a stop on this.

i must. i have to. i will.

While writing this, I was listening to "I Gotta Feeling" by The Black Eyed Peas

MTV World Stage.

2009-08-17T15:30:00.001+08:00

MTV World Stage.

went to the MTV World Stage last Saturday (15th August 2009) at Sunway Surf Beach. yeah~ drove all the way from Melaka baby! had a blast there. even until this very moment my whole body is aching due to jumping and ~~singing~~ woops screaming. the concert was awesome! and the best part was, we are one of the proud mosh pitters.

but the beverage was bloody expensive. rm5 for each (including 500ml drinking water. wth!) but, by 9pm we got complimentary drinks especially for mosh pitters. =P well, too lazy to write too many details. just enjoy the pix ya!

mosh pit passes and free standing passes

wet weather wear, MTV style ;)

Estranged

Boys Like Girls

Martin Johnson - Boys Like Girls

Raygun

Pixie Lott

Hoobastank

The All-American Rejects

Tyson Ritter - The All-American Rejects

Kasabian

us =)

absolutely loving this pix. posing wif the MTV free fan. vain? hell yeah~ (p/s – taib. is this wut u call alien budget comel? comel tuh. x de budget nyer lg. haha! <3)

While writing this, I was listening to "I Gotta Feeling" by The Black Eyed Peas

g.i. joe-ing.

2009-08-15T02:37:00.001+08:00

g. i. joe-ing.

THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME! action-packed! just my kind of action movie. haha! dun care if u guys think its TOO MUCH CGI.

I LOVE IT!

what attract me to the movie so much was apart from the action itself. IT WAS SIENNA MILLER.

can u believe it? YES. i admit im a LESBO now. damn it. she’s fcuking hot! im cursing damn. means i really love her. at first i DID NOT recognize her!! at all!! maybe because of her spectacles and black hair colour. in the end, i came to my senses. haha! gosh! im practically drooling over her right now! bet, Jude Law is crying right now eyh? haha! anyway, the ending song was super awesome too. it was a remix of Boom Boom Pow by Black Eyed Peas. awesome! *download! download!*

hurm. before the movie, me, lan n qila went for our “dinner”. haha. due to technical error, we thought the movie starting at 9.30pm so by 9pm, we rushed to Cold Storage to get our “dinner”. bought 4 pieces of fried chicken and few other things like fish ball. sorry couldnt remember wut u ate la hun. by 9.20pm, we went upstairs to buy our tickets. instead of getting 9.30pm tix, we bought 10.45pm. damn. frustrated wif the whole thing, qila treat me and lan wif McD’s ice-creams. *thx qila! syg kamo <3* went outside and chatted abit. quite interesting conversation they had there. THEM okay. NOT ME. >.<’’ then for some reason, dunno who’s brilliant idea, they suddenly came out wif “jom karaoke?” *looking at my watch, it was 10.15pm* haha! u guys r just brilliant.

bought RM10 can get 11 songs credit instead of regular 10. we sang like *cant even describe here*. keep on fast forwarding the song. LOL. *tuh la, da ckp, amek 5 tamao dengar!* so yeah, in the end, we were late by 10 minutes. but its okay. we didnt missed that much! again i said. GO WATCH GI JOE! worth it! really worth it!

p/s – off to bed. feeling a slight headache. cant wait for tomorrow’s big plan. toodles~

While writing this, I was listening to "Evacuate The Dancefloor" by Cascada

asam pedas.

2009-08-14T00:56:00.001+08:00

asam pedas.

qila datang melake! woohoo!!

jdnyer nak sambut die balek dan manjd tetamu kehormat, me and lan bawak die pegi makan di Asam Pedas Claypot di area Kota Laksamana. sedap wor! kami makan asam pedas ikan pari. sodaaaaaaaap! x rugi! serious! sesape yg berkesempatan dtg Melaka jgn lupe singgah ye! (yeah! promote! promote!)

mcm biase la, perut da kenyang, maka sukala hati.

haha! mcm biase la, sebelum tido, mesti “bertukar-tukar” cerita. da 2 bulan x jumpe beb! mesti baaaaaaaaanyak cite nak cite!

teehee. esok ade quiz statistic lak. ades n my parents are coming over sebab nak uruskan hal hostel. adoi. mcm2. ape nak jd lil?

p/s – hari ini sgt panas okay! berpeluh2. even kat bilik sekarang pown masih terase bahang walaupown kipas dipasang mcm helicopter nak terbang rasenyer. tp tetap rase panas. nak hujan kowt? =X

p/p/s – kenyang lg laaa!! mcm mane mau tido nieh?

While writing this, I was listening to "Taking Back My Love" by Enrique Iglesias Feat. Ciara

roda itu bulat.

2009-08-13T02:43:00.001+08:00

roda itu bulat.

roda itu bulat. itu terbukti benar.

mungkin kamu sekarang tengah syok2 bermain, bergembira dan bersuka-ria di atas. and x pernah nak rase perasaan org yg kat bawah nieh ha, rase susah kene pijak, himpit, lenyek.

ataupown, mungkin kamu mmg da penah rase tp tuh la, TERLUPA kowt mcm mane rasenyer. al-maklumla, kite nieh kan manusia yg hina, sentiasa terlupa.

x pown, mungkin juga kamu berpura-pura dan memilih untuk menipu perasaan diri sendiri.

wuteva it is, i forgive u, cuz maybe somewhere, somehow, we will still bump into each other and i still can put a smile on my face but do pls note that i will not forget. eyh wait! saye pown manusia. i’ll forget, but for that, only time will tell.

tak pe la. terpulangla. pandai2 la bawa diri masing-masing. i wish u all the best. =)

p/s - im strong enough for this *lies* yeap! i know im strong! i’ll get thru this, eventually. =)

While writing this, I was listening to "Issues" by The Saturdays

my fave quote collection. #1

2009-08-13T01:30:00.001+08:00

my fave quote collection. #1.

I LOVE QUOTES! yes! i super duper love them. they are magic words that inspires. and i love being inspired. basically, quotes are my favorite companion mostly when im down and sad. and additional to that, they taught me how to appreciate life more and treasure every moment. so, i just wanna share some wif u guys here. ;)

1. “ There is no better time than right now to be happy. Happiness is a journey, not a destination. So, work like you don’t need money, love like you’ve never been hurt, and dance like no one’s watching.” ~ David Tong, Laughter the Best Malaysian

2. “ In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy. “ ~ Anonymous

3. “ Nobody really cares if you are miserable; so you might as well be happy! ” ~ Anonymous

4. “ People will always talk about you, especially when they envy you and the life you live. Let them. You affected their lives. They didn’t affect yours. ” ~ Anonymous

5. “ A cheerful heart is a good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. ” ~ Proverbs 17:22

6. “ Forgiveness is giving up my right to hate you for hurting me. ” ~ Anonymous

7. “ Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times, you grow. Be thankful for your mistakes. They taught you a very valuable lessons. ” ~ David Tong, He Who Laughs, Lasts!

8. “ Smile is a curve that sets everything straight. ” ~ Anonymous

well, i guess that’s it for now. hope this will cheer u guys up like they did to me. more to come. =) toodles~

p/s – thx love for the book. <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Love Drunk" by Boys Like Girls

straightforward.

2009-08-11T02:32:00.001+08:00

straightforward.

lil,

U’RE TOO STRAIGHTFORWARD.

yeah, another smack in the face!

just the way i like it.

p/s – sorry, x pandai putar belit, nanti terbelit =P

While writing this, I was listening to "A Public Affair" by Jessica Simpson

special thanks to Mak Ngah (Aunty) and family.

2009-08-11T02:00:00.001+08:00

special thanks to Mak Ngah (Aunty) and family.

i would like to express my greatest gratitude to Mak Ngah and family for taking care of me cuz i was ill for the past few days.

thanks for constantly check my temperature.

thanks for the wet towel. ;)

thanks for ur worried-ness =P

thanks for the delicious foods ; pizza, kfc, nasi briyani.

and last but not least, thanks for the Milo (berkotak2 abesku minum =D)

thx Mak Ngah!

p/s – get well soon Kak Arin n si bulat, Zara Aliyah!

While writing this, I was listening to "Te Amo" by Rihanna

back to bottom.

2009-08-11T01:06:00.001+08:00

back to bottom.

Values:
Sensitivity
Harmony
Compassion

Joys:
Romance
Friendships Affection

Strengths:
Nurturer
Sincere
Creativity

Needs:
Understanding
Love
Affection

Frustrations:
Lack of Romance
Disharmony
Time Limits

At work you have a strong desire to influence others so they may lead more significant lives. You often work in the arts, communication, education, and helping professions. You are adept at motivating and interacting with others. (i rarely lead anyway, more to a follower) // helping professions are indeed true cuz one of my biggest ambition (since i was 15 years old) is to join MERCY MALAYSIA ;)

In love you seek harmonious relationships. You are a true romantic and believe in perfect love that lasts forever. You bring drama, warmth, and empathy to relationships. You enjoy symbols of romance such as flowers, candlelight, and music an cherish the small gestures of love.

In childhood you were extremely imaginative and found it difficult to fit into the structure of school life. You reacted with great sensitivity to discordance or rejection and sought recognition. You responded to encouragement.

p/s – im in a situation where sometimes its so hard and difficult to know myself anymore, yes, again, like i said before in my previous post, im “lost”, and im trying to find my identity back. so these are indeed a great help. <- just another note to myself =)

While writing this, I was listening to "Good Girls Gone Bad" by Cobra Starship

nenek.

2009-08-09T01:07:00.001+08:00

nenek.

how cool is my 80++ years old grandma?

While writing this, I was listening to "Taking Back My Love" by Enrique Iglesias Feat. Ciara

fever and H1N1.

2009-08-08T13:11:00.001+08:00

fever and H1N1.

down wif fever, my temperature was abit bleah. from 38.2 increased to 40 and now decreased to 39.

just took my medicines, and now off to bed. cuz i feel my head is spinning round and round. n not to mention it feels abit heavy. *very painful! *

ouh plus, im at my aunt’s place and my aunty is my personal nurse. haha! *syok wor, ade org jage, constantly check my temperature and letakkan kaen basah kat dahi =D*

my lil nieces and nephew just got back from clinic since they didnt stop coughing *according to my aunt before she left the house earlier this morning*

BREAKING NEWS

my cousin, Hadee positive Influenza A H1N1. i just hope everything is okay there. that includes my uncle, my aunty, my cousin deeba, their maid, satuni and pakcik saini and especially my 80++ years old grandma. very shocking news indeed! wuts more sad is that when my aunt told me that grandma cant stop crying and plus she is willing to get infected by the Influenza A as well. such love =’( sigh~

*Ya Allah, lindungilah umatmu sekelian* =(

p/s – yeah, i missed u terribly too

p/p/s – happy 21st bday RayZ. love u lots! xoxo <3

p/p/p/s – people! do take care of urself okay? dun forget to wear mask no matter how uncomfortable it is. take multivitamin to boost immune system, increased fluid intake and the most important, STAY AT HOME! and avoid crowded place. =D

While writing this, I was listening to "Issues" by The Saturdays

special thanks to people of Hospital Melaka.

2009-08-07T20:14:00.001+08:00

special thanks to people of Hospital Melaka.

i would like to express my greatest gratitude to the following people for helping me today! ;)

1. Tuan Haji Aris from Hospital Melaka

2. Tuan Haji Idris from Hospital Melaka

3. Dr. Ahmad from Pantai Medical Centre

dear sir, thank you for ur superb hospitality and for making my way alot easier and faster for me. =D

*nieh kes jump queue td kat hospital, jgn jeles ye cuz i jumped over 50++ pesakit yg datang nak check H1N1*

Alhamdulillah, its a just a normal fever, and my temperature was 38.2, not that high but i got a feeling that my temperature is slowly increasing now. =(

ouh, of course my beloved Daddy! if it wasnt ur help, i wouldnt get this kind of treat! *hugs and kiss baba! ;)*

and last but not least, dear friend of mine, Miz Mimiy. *mimiy, thanks for teman lil yg berjalan slow mengalahkan siput and drive ye, lil belanje u one day =D*

p/s – okay. time to rest. away~~~ im evacuating this bloody building. off i go~! =D

p/p/s – mama, lil muntah td. =( aduhai, malas nak check lg. =.=’’ *wut a waste of good foods. >.<’’*

p/p/p/s – ini lah dunia =)

While writing this, I was listening to "Evacuate The Dancefloor" by Cascada

Pengalaman org yg ade family dijangkiti H1N1. Untuk panduan bersama.

2009-08-07T20:12:00.001+08:00

Pengalaman orang yang ade family dijangkiti H1N1. Untuk panduan bersama.

High risk infection to person yg smoking, has asthma, children, pregnant woman

Beginner stage
Batuk, selsema, demam, sakit tekak, bila terbesin bunyi tak kuat...

Second Stage
Susah bernafas, simtom macam asthma but not asthma, at this stage if you touch the person, or breath in the same room 80% boleh kena...masa ni kena kuarantin...at hospital. Masalahnya sekarang dah ramai yg kena.. hospital tak cukup katil & bilik kuarantin...Bila u pengsan macam nak mati baru dia org admitted.macam kes adik I.

Critical
Lung infection. Bila X ray we can see the virus covered the lung. Like my brother case. Very scary bila tengok x ray tu. At this stage u need oksigen with highest level, Strongest antivral..very high drug. At least 7 days oksigen kena bagi. % to recover depend to age, imune badan u. That's why kalau baby atau budak2 susah nak kata...normally die. My brother hari ni genap 8 hari..still need oksigen. Kesian dia. Masa tahap critical tu tercungap2 dia bernafas, sampai menangis..Sampai satu tahap dia berguling atas simen sbb dah tak tahan...sampai dia give up ..sampai dia blh cakap lebih baik Allah ambik nyawa dia...Itu lelaki tu..imagine kalau pompuan atau budak2. We all cuma blh tengok dia dari cermin...tak blh masuk dlm bilik kuarantin...Dr & nurse aje boleh masuh...siap pakai baju plastik. To support him, what we did bagi sms, bagi dia alquran biar dia baca so that dia tenang, bagi tasbih biar dia zikir ingat Allah & bagi Air yasin...Alhamdulillah pastu dia ok sikit.Ada hikmahnya...All the family member unite to support my brother fighting the virus.

Masalahnya hospital swasta tak terima H1N1 case, sekarang ni semua depend hospital kerajaan yg most of the doctors still young . The oldest dr in my brother ward was 28 years. All the Otai dah pergi private. Lepas tu plak this is the first time to treat H1N1 patient. At the same time dr bz with other case as well...1 doktor 5 patient...kat gov hospital...kesian dr2 tu...berhempas pulas nak selamatkan patient. I appreciate them, mmg very appreciate dia org jaga adik i dgn baik sekali..So far hospital Ampang is the best goverment hospital yg i jumpa..very efficient.Very quick action ..Even senior dia org dah pergi private & they don't have much experience , dia org tetap work hard give the best treatment to the patients..sampai tak balik rumah...tidor kat hospital.
Rasa nak peluk & cium dia org sebab selamatkan adik I...Thanks to Allah
Take care & be careful with H1N1. Virus tu very strong...sape kena...memang suffer nak recover...No vaksin..cuma ada antiviral & our mental warrior to fight them. Very genius virus..Can hide in our body...difficult to detect. Only can detect thru swap which the cost is 1K above. Unable detected in blood as well. When they start action...Can kill the person if the body imune does not strong. For those have baby atau anak2, U & ur family do not go to crowded place, better wear mask when u outside from home. The vaksin will come to Msia in Nov-Dec. So far yg I nampak..hanya lelaki dewasa can fight the virus...woman might be 70% , children most probably will die.

this is not me, im just forwarding this msg. for the goodness of all. ;)

While writing this, I was listening to "Evacuate The Dancefloor" by Cascada

which one? help me find my answer.

2009-08-07T19:12:00.001+08:00

which one? help me find my answer.

What’s better? A lie that draws a smile, or the truth that draws a tear?

p/s – credits to Melanie Liu Jialing for the brilliant question. ;)

While writing this, I was listening to "Not Falling Apart" by Maroon 5

sad truth.

2009-08-07T19:03:00.001+08:00

sad truth.

There’s one sad truth in life I’ve found,

While journeying east and west,

The only folks we really wound,

Are those we love the best.

We flatter those we scarcely know,

We please the fleeting guest,

And deal full many a thoughtless blow,

To those who love us best.

by, Ella Wheeler Wilcox

p/s – this is dedicated to the one I love the most. and to that, im really sorry.

While writing this, I was listening to "Lonely Day" by System Of A Down

stress.

2009-08-07T01:06:00.001+08:00

stress.

Problem?

having such a massive stress ;

will suppress immune system ;

in addition with hazey weather ;

down with fever, sore throat, cough ;

high chances to get infected by H1N1 ;

in the end? DIE. *nauzubillah, diminta jauhkan la, Ya Allah, selamatkan la hambaMu yg hina ini*

How To Solve It?

tomorrow must go to hospital ;

to check my not-so-chronic-condition ;

plus do the H1N1 test too ;

and dun forget to take medication ;

and

it is proven that, laugh can reduce stress (that is y, laughter is the best medicine) ;

reduced stress can boost immunity ;

result in increase health condition ;

so maybe tomorrow too im going to watch SETEM! (yeah! support Malaysian movie!)

p/s – in need of a good laughter =)

While writing this, I was listening to "About A Girl" by The Academy Is...

sweet dreams.

2009-08-03T20:52:00.001+08:00

sweet dreams.

okay now i really feel like to mess wif Beyonce’s latest hit called Sweet Dreams. =)

baby, ure a sweet dreams or a beautiful nightmare. either way i, just wanna wake up from u.

baby, ure a sweet dreams or a beautiful nightmare. either way i, don’t wanna wake up from u.

baby, ure definitely a sweet dreams and a beautiful nightmare and therefore i really need to wake up from u.

baby, every night i rush to my bed, wif hopes that maybe i’ll get a chance to see u, but,

baby, ure just a dream, u’ll disappear when i finally open my eyes *wide*.

baby, i used to tell u i believe in fairytale, but im lost in my own fairytale.

i need somebody to pinch me, cuz ur love is too good to be true.

but,

its my guilty pleasure baby, cuz i ain’t going no where. ;)

p/s – maybe tonight, i’ll sleep wif my eyes open. =)

While writing this, I was listening to "Sweet Dreams" by Beyonce

sigh.

2009-07-18T03:38:00.001+08:00

sigh.

haih. agak keciwa dgn diri sendiri bile menghampakan kwn sendiri. kwn yg amek berat pasal kite. kwn yg care pasal kite. kwn yg sayang kite. kwn yg jd sebahagian dlm diri ini. tp tuh la. diri nieh sendiri yg x nak tolong diri sendiri.

ape nieh? lil!! bgn la dr tido! haish.

p/s – im sorry. =(

While writing this, I was listening to "Waking Up in Vegas" by Katy Perry

tagged by kak taro.

2009-07-18T03:23:00.001+08:00

tagged by kak taro.

1. What time did you get up this morning?
+ late. enuf said.

2. How do you like your steak?
+ erm? how. OMG i miss “Lanun” at Uptown Damansara! they serve the best steak! along wif mushroom and bbq sauce. grilled. aww dang. *terliur*

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
+ TRANFORMERS 2 : Revenge Of The Fallen

4. What is your favorite TV show?
+ tonnes! desperate housewives, house, the nanny *so jewish*, ANTM, grey’s anatomy, and list is on and on and on. =(

5. What did you have for breakfast?
+ overslept. no breakfast for me. T_T

6. What was your maiden name if married or middle name if not?
+ im a muslim. no such thing.

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
+ japanese, thai, chinese, western, LOL! im a food lover! <3

8. What foods do you dislike?
+ erm veggie? haha!

9. Favorite dressing?
+ jeans or slack wif T-shirts.

10. What kind of vehicle do you drive?
+ normal cars. o.O?

11. What are your favorite clothes?
+ jeans or slack wif T-shirts. sometimes dress too. haha!

12. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would it be?
+ ALL AROUND THE WORLD!

13. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? why ?
+ 1/2 full. always look on a brighter side of life. =)

14. Where would you want to retire?
+ anywhere would do just fine.

15. Favorite time of day?
+ off day? haha!

16. Where were you born?
+ hospital besar kuala lumpur.

17. What is your favorite sport to watch?
+ football. LoL. *yes, like paie said, iklil tgk sebab kwn2 die tgk* haha! =P

18. Who do you think will not tag you back?
+ wut?

19. Person you expect to tag you back first?
+ wut? wut?

20. Pepsi or Coke?
+ coke.

21. Bird watcher?
+ erm. depends on my mood. if tgk bird bird laen ley tak? haha!

22. Are you a morning person or a night person?
+ night!

23. Do you have any pets?
+ ouh yesh. poyo, my darling orange female half-persian cat.

24. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
+ erm. i dun think so. sorry. haha!

25. What did you want to be when you were little?
+ marine biologist! sebab dulu2 nak berenang ngan dolphin! ouh yeah~ xD

26. What is your best childhood memory?
+ tonnes! memories! especially high school! miss it though~

27. Are you a cat person or a dog person?
+ cat person of course!

28. Beer or Margarita?
+ none. dun do alcohol.

29. Always wear your seat belt?
+ not really. unless i see a blue light. *means police* then YES.

30. Been in a car accident?
+ yeah. haish. one thing i learn from car accident is, WASTE OF BLOODY MONEY!

31. Favorite Restaurant?
+ Marche (The Curve), Delicious (One Utama), Sushi King, and mamak! haha!

32. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
+ tonnes of cheese and pepperoni! yummy!

33. Favorite Flower?
+ lily of the valley <3

34. Favorite ice cream?
+ new zealand natural ice creams! <3

35. Favorite fast food restaurant?
+ mcD.

36. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
+ zero!

37. From whom did you get your last email?
+ facebook.

38. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
+ erm. wut eyh? cant think of any now. =P

39. Bedtime?
+ 5am onwards

40. Who are you most curious about his/her responses to this?
+ dunno.

41. Broccoli?
+ erm. sorry. i dun eat broccoli. =(

42. What was your favorite vacation?
+ havent been in vacation for quite a long time now. =(

43. Last dinner?
+ burger daging special. adoi. sedeynyer dengar. =P

44. What are you listening to right now?
+ my iTunes playlist.

45. What is your favorite color?
+ black, red, pink, orange, baby blue.

46. How many tattoos do you have?
+ none.

47. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
+ none.

48. What time did you finish this quiz?
+ 3.21am

49. Coffee drinker?
+ hell yes! <3

50. im tagging:

+ none. haha!

While writing this, I was listening to "Zero Gravity" by David Archuleta

thank you.

2009-07-18T02:23:00.001+08:00

thank you.

thank you pakcik!

thank you for ur effort.

thank you for ur alternatives.

thank you for ur different approaches.

despite the “odds" which almost trigger our World War 2 *yet again*

u just made my day!

im grateful, happy and overwhelmed!

yeap! yeap! im talking to u! *points finger*

thank you! love you! <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Sugar" by Flo Rida ft. Wynter Gordon

hari gado sedunia.

2009-07-17T03:05:00.001+08:00

hari gado sedunia.

hari ini hari gado sedunia. haish~

nak tau kenape?

sebab hari ni saye gado! haha! tp da okay. sebab saye sayang die.

hari ini hari gado sedunia. haha!

nak tau kenape?

sebab room mate saye pown gado ngan best-friend die. *pulaaak*

hari ini hari gado sedunia. haha!

nak tau kenape?

sebab housemate saye pown gado ngan scandal die. *aiyoyo*

so mmg hari nieh hari gado sedunia la. peace! <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Falling Down" by Space Cowboy ft. Chelsea Korka (of Paradiso Girls)

prepaid.

2009-07-14T00:08:00.001+08:00

prepaid.

saye da tukar no buat sementare waktu. so korang x ley contact my old number <017*****35> *THIS IS TEMPORARY UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE*

sape yg “the chosen one” dpt la tau my new number. haha. adoi. sebab my old number tuh bill. disebabkan penggunaan yg melebihi had and sampai bergunung – ganang tingginya. maka terpaksalah kembali ke prepaid. wheeeeeee!

sekian, harap maklum.

yg tidak menjalankan tugas. haha! =P

While writing this, I was listening to "Kiss Me Thru The Phone feat Sammie" by Soulja Boy

outing.

2009-07-13T15:32:00.001+08:00

outing.

went outing last saturday wif zarith, mai, izzati, afzan, nadia, kak ain and syud. (murni x ikut cuz kemalasan melande *hentuk kepale baru tau*). well can considered as catch up session gak. agak lame x hangout together (sungguh lame okay!!) hehe. asalnyer tujuan nak pegi makan famous cucur udang kat Alor Gajah. then cam biase. merewang la kesana dan kemari.

before bertolak they decided to lunch dulu. haha. then bole la pulak terserempak ngan madam morita, kak bee, lan, johan, reza n rizal kat naiman.

this is us during lunch time.

then bile da sampai kat destinasi yg ingin dituju. ini la rupe cucur udang yg famous kat Alor Gajah tuh. serious sedaaaaap! very crunchy! ;)

this is us again (kali nieh complete package *means sumeorg ade dlm 1 pix*)

*actually tonnes gamba yg kami snap time tuh, tp x nak la letak byk2, nanti berat pulak my blog nieh =P*

perut kenyang, suke hati. haha! next kami pegi lepak2 kat Pantai Puteri.

this is us again again. haha! yeah! kami GILE GAMBA!

penat gak la *padahal amek gamba je pown* haha! ouh well. it was fun. n bak kate zarith “terluang suda masa hari Sabtuku” lebey kurang la. ye la. kalo x dok menyangapla masing2. hee!

p/s - loving it. jom buat lg nak?

p/p/s – Happy Belated Bday Amin! ;)

While writing this, I was listening to "I Gotta Feeling" by The Black Eyed Peas

mcd.

2009-07-11T08:24:00.001+08:00

mcd.

yeah~

wut a pleasant morning to kick off my day!

im wide awake since 3 am this morning. cuz for some reason i cant go to sleep anymore *which is super weird!* sigh~

watched few anime series such as Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood (Episode 14), Clannad, Detective Academy Q. haha! awesome. the video quality was superb and non-lagging and was super-smooth. DAMN! i really miss animax. but the internet was waaaay better cuz i can pick which anime i want to watch. feel so excited cuz rarely for me to watch something super-smooth as last night wif my crappy broadband connection.

without realizing it, its already 7.40am. my stomach was growling cuz i didnt eat anything since yesterday. haha! and my mind immediately think of McD! yeah~ breakfast at McD! been craving for it for the past 2 months ++.

bought 1 set of Sausage McMuffin wif Egg plus hot milo! yummy! and drove to the lake nearby. haha! heaven! the environment was peaceful, muffin on my right hand and hot milo on my left hand. wut can i say more? haha! *gile gelojoh. tipu je la! =P*

saw some guys fishing at the corner of my left eye. bet the guys mesti ckp “apela budak pompuan tuh makan mcd kat tasik sorang2”. haha! dun care la. as long im happy its more than enuf. wheeeeeeeeee!

ouh well, da kenyang, suke hati. JOM TIDO! ngantuk da datang! yeay! nitey nite! *tgk jam suda pukol 8.30am*

While writing this, I was listening to "Good Girls Gone Bad" by Cobra Starship

jog.

2009-07-11T04:13:00.001+08:00

jog.

haha! ye saye jog. mesti sume x percaye kan? haha! ades. nieh sume sebab as usual la kebosanan dlm bilik. ape je la nak buat. kelas ade kol 10-12 and 2.30-4. then im free~! free la sangat. then complaint bosan. haish. cam “ling ling ke” la lil.

lepas sort time table and notes yg cam bersepah2. texted Lan. da 2-2 bosan. haha! bile suro die tido nanti otak berkarat, bak kate die la. jd suro la die pegi maen bola kat Stadium Tun Fatimah. mule2 biase la. malas. haha! then bile perasan the weather is so damn bloody nice sebab mendung *mcm nak hujan pown ade gak*. teruja gak la. x panas. selalu nyer kol 6 matahari terik lg.

few minutes later die kate jd pergi sebab Rizal pown pegi and i asked him to fetch me at hostel. kluar agak lambat and then jam lak tgh2 jalan. so sampai pown agak lambat la. Lan and Rizal maen bola sepak while me, hehe! asal nak jogging sebab da siap bawak my jogging kit. ngahaha! which is my ipod and nike+ *korang nak bahan, bahan la, at least gune okay! drpd tersimpan buat pekasam* half way jog x sampai 5 minute. nampak pulak senam aerobic. adoi. tergugat iman. so join la. haha! best! lantak la terhenjut2 cam org gile yg penting i had fun. haha! sempat buat for 15 minutes je kowt. around there la. then bile da abes aerobic. sambung la jogging.

little that i know yg tempat tuh sangat besar! OMG. terketar2 gak la kaki berlari. haha! *cuti 2 bulan buat ape? tido je kan? sebab tuh la. mama bising kamu buat pekak je!* ades.

bile da sampai where Lan parked his car, lega! phew~ kaki still abit shaky. and da ley rase petande kaki nak cramp. *walaupown da warm up suam2 kuku earlier*

tunggu mereka berdua abes maen bola and lepak2 and balek terus BUM atas katil.

p/s – haha. cam nak je pegi sane everyday. best and im so excited about it. tp tuh la. jauh sgt. aiyo! *actually ini adalah alasan semate2. ley je kalo nak pegi tp virus M.A.L.A.S melande*

p/p/s – bodo la hotlink caller ringtone. nak beli caller ringtone “Good Girls Gone Bad by Cobra Starship” pown x de. tp lagu yg laen by the same artist ade lak! bodo! x nak duit ke?

While writing this, I was listening to "Good Girls Gone Bad" by Cobra Starship

happy 17th bday deeba.

2009-07-10T02:01:00.001+08:00

happy 17th bday deeba.

hye sayang! just wanna wish u happy 17th birthday.

semoga dirahmati Allah disamping keluarga tersayang =)

do ur best in ur SPM and pass wif flying colours tau!

love u loads dear. <3

xoxo

p/s – jgn lupe blanje kak lil tau! ;P

p/p/s – have fun kat PLKN nanti. haha! =D

While writing this, I was listening to "Childhood " by Michael Jackson

spring cleaning.

2009-07-10T01:12:00.001+08:00

spring cleaning.

wheeeeeeeee. its spring cleaning time *finally!*

nieh pown gara2 room mate baru nak masuk. sebab tuh la kene kemas. da la my room was bloody dirty and dusty la mostly.

plus my stuff occupied most of the room. haha. KEMAS ~ !!

time sapu bilik asyik bersin2 je. adeh. dapat runny nose pulak time tuh. cuz i got sinus. so sepatutnyer kene avoid bende2 berhabuk. tp apekan daye. pakse jugak la diri ini.

pergh sawang byk gile okay~ penuh 1 penyodok tuh. haha! nampak sgt da lame x sapu bilik.

then mop cuz nak kurangkan habuk. bile da abes and terdapat extra kerajinan dlm diri ini, maka dgn rajinnye lap la bende2 yg boleh dilap dengan kaen buruk mcm tikar and cupboard.

yeah. bilikku dust-free heee!

tido ngan aman mlm nieh!

While writing this, I was listening to "Zero Gravity" by David Archuleta

sunyi.

2009-07-09T00:00:00.001+08:00

sunyi.

haha. ketika ini la terasa kesunyian melanda diri. speaker ade subwoofer yg dipasang bagai nak pecah telinga pown umpama kedengaran sayup2 saje.

tapi tak pe. macam mane pown jgn lupe senyum tau! okey? janji?

ishk! jangan muncung! SENYUM~!

While writing this, I was listening to "I'll Be There" by Jackson 5

a letter to MJ.

2009-07-08T23:40:00.001+08:00

a letter to MJ.

finally. they set u free. finally u will be in ur eternal peace *insyaAllah*

indeed, when u left us, the world has lost the greatest and the best entertainer of all universe. no one will ever replace u dear MJ.

i cried most of the time while watching ur memorial service. they indeed gave a very lovely yet touching speech. they were lucky enough to know u personally. as for me, i just know u thru ur unforgettable hit records. i dun really mind about the tabloids who accused u for being wutever they wanted u to be. im sure, such a compassionate person like u would’ve done no harm to children, the people u care the most.

i must say, Brooke Shields gave the most unforgettable speech of all. from that moment, i saw the most purest and genuine kind of friendship u both have since u were a little kid. not to mention how mischievous u were. trying to get the first peek of Elizabeth Taylor’s wedding dress the night before the wedding itself ey? i found it rather cute. and im sure im sharing the same feeling with other million fans of yours.

and the thing i love the most about u is that u always put a smile on ur face no matter how hard the world try to knock u down. only now i realize that by looking at old pictures of urs over the internet. i know its hard but uve pulled it thru. u’ve been such an inspiration to me. and im gonna continue that legacy of urs, MJ. =)

all i can say is, THANK YOU Michael Joseph Jackson. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! and my prayers will always be wif u, always. <3

Smile, though your heart is aching. Smile, even though its breaking

Its time to Celebrate The Life Of Michael Jackson

p/s – i just cant stop loving u, MJ, may Allah have his mighty mercy upon u. –Gone Too Soon–

While writing this, I was listening to "I'll Be There" by Jackson 5

lost.

2009-07-06T23:47:00.001+08:00

lost.

i lost my freaking damn hostel keys! ARGH! bloody! its not the keys that im worried about. its my Coach keychain that has the same design as my precious colourful Coach handbag!! awwwwwwwwwwww!

p/s – haha! miss speaking japanese. but luckily today i got a new friend to speak wif! wheeeeeeee~ xD and his name is haliq-kun! ;) lets speak japanese people!

p/p/s – done hair treatment which cost me rm80. OMG. how am i gonna survive? mama dun want to reimburse. die! and now i look like a wanna-be chinese girl. haha!

p/p/p/s – nightmare has started OFFICIALLY~

While writing this, I was listening to "A Public Affair" by Jessica Simpson

pack.

2009-07-06T02:48:00.001+08:00

pack.

haha! yeah. hari ni kembali lah daku ke tempat yg sepatutnya aku berada ketika musim pembelajaran bermula, iaitu Melaka.

nak pack jgn ckp la. took me ages baru siap kemas. standard la kan, perempuan. byk sgt barang. barang yg x penting pown kene bawak. wajib! haha!

makanya terdapatla beberapa dan pelbagai macam jenis beg yg kene angkut. beg galas ada, tp paling byk shopping bag la. beg2 yg lawa mcm Zara, Levi’s, Padini, Armani Exchange, Billabong dikitar dan digunapakai semula untuk mengangkut so-called-important barang. naseb beg tarik2 x de sebab da diangkut earlier.

lepas siap ~~tolong~~ mama buat cake yg telah diniatkan untuk bg kat my friends kat Melaka, my lecturer and Paie (nieh tande ucap terime kasih sebab bg air zam zam and kurma dr Mekah. thx again bro~ <3). sedap wor! brownies and carrot cake! took my bath and tunggu Lan untuk diangkut ke Melaka. my car da lame park kat melake, gara2 malas nak ulang alik naek kete. naek bas lg best! ley tido. bgn2 da sampai destinasi. haha!

sesampai di Melaka, lepak2 then balek hostel. haha! yeah! tiba masa untuk mengemas.

time2 nieh la rindu ex-roommate ku yg rajin, iaitu seorg budak yg bername Qila. haha! masuk je tandas, mak oi. hitam nyer! da la aku nieh jenis penggeli. yeah! PENGGELI DAN PEMALAS! i admit that! tapi kukuatkan semangat dan menyental la segala mcm jenis kotoran kat tandasku itu. abes lantai, toilet bowl, sinki disentalnyer. haha! *mama! u should be proud of me now!!* haha! putih wor. rasenyer mcm shiny lak tandas tuh.

bilik esok la mop and sapu and etc. nak kene baiki kipas dulu. kang sia2 je berhabuk balik.

yeah. da ley dengar da “nightmare” ku akan bermula.

penat! nak tido. esok nak register. haih. tata! sweet dreams to me!

While writing this, I was listening to "They Don't Care About Us" by Michael Jackson

BAD.

2009-07-01T09:49:00.004+08:00

BAD.

Because I’m BAD, I’m BAD

Come On

(Bad Bad Really, Really Bad)

You Know I’m BAD, I’m BAD

You Know It

(Bad Bad Really, Really Bad)

You Know I’m BAD, I’m BAD

Come On, You Know

(Bad Bad Really, Really Bad)

And The Whole World Has To

Answer Right Now

Just To Tell You Once Again,

Who’s Bad… ?

p/s – yeah i know IM BAD. so? im a devil pretending to be an angel. note that!

While writing this, I was listening to "Bad" by Michael Jackson

RIP MJ.

2009-07-01T06:47:00.001+08:00

RIP MJ.

Michael Joseph Jackson. The Legendary King of Pop died on the 25th of June 2009. the cause of his death is unknown. cuz until now theres too many speculation about his death. was it because of the prescribed drug? but he was sent to the hospital due to cardiac arrest. senang kate da Allah s.w.t sayang die. sebab tuh la kan? btw MJ is a Muslim people. =) his muslim name is Mikaeel.

i was among the earliest one to heard about his death. read about the news around 6.20am local time. *nieh gara2 tak boleh tido and ber-on9 24/7*. at first, i thought, this maybe just some hoax. just some cheap publicity or something cuz earlier i read at eonline.com that he was rushed to the hospital due to cardiac arrest. less than 1 hour later, the news shocked the whole world. dengar dari fly.fm and hitz.fm pasal the news. so mmg confirm la bende tuh btol. at that particular time, i still cant accept it. seriously. mcm x percaye sgt. in my head, btol ke ape yg aku dengar nieh? atau mimpi? atau my brain is playing tricks wif me cuz im lacking my beautiful sleep? and somehow mcm nak sgt percaye that MJ will wake up just like the girl dlm video Incubus – Anna Molly. *Astagfirullahala’zim*

maybe sebab x percaye lg n still dlm kebingungan (dan mengantuk), perasaan sedih x terlintas lg dlm hati. tp bile da start dengar hitz.fm, *haa! amek ko* aduhai hati ini bagai dirobek2. yeah. im being melodramatic right now. who cares. but that was truly wut i feel. time tuh dengar hitz.fm je cuz kat fly.fm die selang seli ngan lagu latest. haha! mood time tuh nak dengar lagu MJ je. x kesah la walaupown da diulang berjuta kali. so sambil dengar lagu2 yg sama diputarkan di radio, jari2 jemari yg gatal nieh masih lg nak surf everything about MJ walhal badan da x larat da nak tahan mengantuk. so mule la start bace pasal plastic surgery die, his conversion to Islam, his brother, Jermaine who also a Muslim influenced, motivated and support him to convert to Islam, his family and etc. bile bace bab Islam nieh, sayu pulak hati. Allah s.w.t da bukak pintu hati die. so as a Muslim, im so proud and honored to have such a high profile figure to share the same religion as i am.

tido around 9 i guess. then terbgn balek around 10.30 bile hati perasan si dia terabai begitu sahaje di msn. kesian~ bile die pown da syok tido. so i continued my beautiful sleep. the whole day dok pasang lagu MJ je. time paling x ley bla is when i listen to “You Are Not Alone” of course by super awesome MJ. without i realizing it, tears da bergelumang dlm mate, tinggal nak jatuh berlinangan je. haha. i wasnt quite sure i was crying for wut reason. hati sebak kowt pasal bende nieh. ouh MJ~

so since that, bile ngadap lappy je sure surf pasal MJ, dorang nak buat tribute la, etc etc. then bile ngadap tv pulak, asyik ngadap Channel V sebab tribute mmg 24/7. 2 hari x pandang cite laen woo. kengkadang tgk CNN and E! everything is all about MJ. haha! x tau la ape ke halnyer. x de mood nak tgk cite laen unless news pasal MJ je.

i admit, i wasnt his super huge big fan. x dengar pown lagu die setiap hari except for the past few days. its just that bile dengar lagu die, teringat zaman kecik2. zaman lagi mude dulu (cuz i am still mude okay!~) teringat baba dok pasang lagu MJ dlm kete. time tuh baba gune kete Civic Bullet aka Honda Mayat and siap letak lcd tv lagi dlm kete. and sound system lak mantap! pergh. mmg layan la. lagi2 lagu Smooth Criminal yg jerit sane jerit sini. haha. mmg sumpa layaaaan~ time tuh time primary school. sebab baba hantar me n my brother pegi sekolah pagi2. around 1990s gak la. cuz time tuh MJ pown tgh “meletup”! haha. babaku sungguh cool!

so, dipendekkan cite, technically i grew up wif MJ, baba siap beli compilation cd MJ and pasang tiap2 hari. hurm. pelikkan dulu asyik dengar ulang2 x bosan pown. kalo lagu sekarang, pusing2 je da start muak da nak dengar. i wonder y? *haha! dlm otak tersesat lak lagu Lemon Tree (i wonder how, i wonder why….)*

plus i was n still am really moved by his songs and lyrics. especially Earth Song. time kecik2 dulu suke tp sedey bile tgk video Earth Song. lagu x ya cakap la. mmg best. yg sedey is the part where all the elephants died. sedey wor. rasenyer penah tanyer my parents y all the elephants died dlm video tuh. then either mama or baba replied, sebab habitat die manusia da hancurkan. thats y la gajah2 tuh mati. haha! that time timbullah rase kesian sgt kat gajah2 tuh and since that day i vowed that i’ll never harm those magnificent creatures. (adoi, teringat lak bile tgk cite National Geographic time kecik2, si singa membaham si gajah, memang menyumpah habis la kat singa2 tuh. haha! kecik lagi la. so x tau how the world works. siap ckp dlm hati, bile aku da besar nanti, nak jd protector of animals in terms of binatang yg selalu menjadi mangsa like zebra, giraffe and elephant) okay. nieh da melalut jd bende laen da nieh.

so there you go, this is just a piece of me on MJ. im sure theres other million people who share the same feeling as i do. he ~~was~~ is a legend and he will always be.

ouh! ouh! dun get me started wif “The Man In The Mirror”. yes couldnt agree more! if u want the world to change. u need to change urself first! the msg is so crystal clear~ and lagu “ We Are The World” ouh hati sgt la kagum *im having goosebumbs as im writing this now* words just cant define wut i am feeling right now. MJ~!

haih. nak cite pasal MJ rasenyer mmg x de kesudahan la agaknyer. post nieh pown da agak panjang. aiyer. penat nak ingat n nak type. maybe i’ll save it for another day la kowt. =) huhu.

anyway, for those who still cant accept the truth, read this, taken from Afiq Deen's post - Jacko Wacko KO?

You know what?
He's not dead.
He is in outer space right now. The dead body is one of Michael Jackson's impersonators. He didn't bring along Janet though (because all Janet impersonators have penises and this will not fly with doctors who will be conducting her post mortem.)

The King of Pop left earth and became the intergalactical God of Pop.

(based on Scream Video by Janet and Michael Jackson)

August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009

Love u MJ. May Allah be with you, always. <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Bad" by Michael Jackson

empty.

2009-07-01T03:55:00.001+08:00

empty.

aww. i feel so empty. anyway i feel like writing something today.

hurm. wuts going on for the past few days eyh?

30-June-2009

baba, mama, izzat n i went to Chow Kit. durian hunting!!! (again~) personally, im not a big fan of King of Fruits but dunno y for the past few days i ate durian like crazy.

so currently im bloated and my breath n my right hand still got durian smell. ouh. while durian hunting earlier i saw something well rather unusual. haha! theres this couple, to prevent the smell from spreading inside their precious Mercedes C-Class, they put their freshly bought durian outside their car, as in between the front mirror and the wiper. haha! couldnt stop smiling bout that.

29-June-2009

mama send poyo (my precious orange female cat) to the vet to get her yearly vaccine and “ubat cacing”. haha! when we arrive there, i can see poyo was in terrified mood cuz there was a dog couldnt stop barking inside the vet. so poyo was sitting quietly inside her cage. haha! after she got her injection and swallowed a huge pill, we went straight home. woops before that mama bought a new pet carrier for poyo since the old one was broken. kak sonya couldnt let go of her hand due to make sure that the door will remain closed. and the funny thing was (and kesian pown ade actually) poyo acted very strangely for the past two days. she didnt play outside the house and she just laze and sleep all day long. mama said cuz she caught fever after she got injected. no wonder. that explains it. haha! i love u poyo! <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Bad" by Michael Jackson

baba. (part 1)

2009-06-24T18:43:00.001+08:00

baba. (part 1)

well, today im off to malacca for some unfinished business. its not really that important though. its just that i tend to procrastinate ALOT. n alot means alot okay. ngee. cuz i need to find a repairman to fix my bloody fan in my room. cuz ive been suffering for having such a wonderful looking ceiling fan that only looks pretty and complete the necessary needs for every room and the most wonderful part is that its not working!! not functioning!! been complaining to the college but end up suffering for 1 whole year already. so mama generously said that she’ll pay for the fixing expanses. so hopefully i’ll sleep comfortably soon! hee

plus its spring cleaning time! my room desperately in need of that! haha! u have no idea wut might be living underneath my bed. hee. i guess i know wuts running in ur mind right now *ishk. iklil nieh sungguh x senonoh* haha! ouh well. thats y they call me lazybumbum for nothing right?

well, before i go, obviously i need to pack my stuff. haha. back pain!! need to filled up my super humongous luggage wif all my clothes. i hate packing. truly hate it. urgh. then, i accompany baba take his lunch. he eats very slowly, and the thing that really kills me inside was when i saw his hands shaking when hes about to put food in his mouth. shaking when hes about to take “lauk” and put in his plate. shaking when hes about to drink from his mug. yeah. i feel like i wanna help him somehow but i know baba. hes really independent. n he will try his best not to rely on others. so basically i cant do anything. or i will get scolded for free! i dunno about u guys but i can feel his pain. thats because my body tends to shake vigorously when i feel hungry. erm. not really hungry la. sometimes my body shakes when my stomach is empty. haha. and it is really PAIN! i repeat. PAIN! when my body is shaking. i cant eat properly. my jaw is like not functional properly. so i have the difficulty to munch, to chew and sometimes swallow. so there u go. thats y when i see baba in that condition. it truly tear my heart out. honestly, when i saw that, i almost cried. but that time obviously i have to control myself. haha. so i just watch him finish his food slowly. then, i prepared his warm goat milk before i departed as told by aunty enon.

While writing this, I was listening to "Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say)" by Lady GaGa

editing.

2009-06-23T21:45:00.001+08:00

editing.

just finished editing my darn blog. haha! a lil touch of here n there. ngee. since my previous layout cant post any comment. (i must say, thanks to Kaklong Adzu and her post that really open up my eyes). kinda curious too though, wut kind of comments i shall get. so i decided to change every single thing. it broke my heart though cuz i miss my lil “kambeng” which was so cute. anyway. only last night i converted my blog from the classic to the latest version. how dumb was i? LoL. no wonder all this while i really cant understand the instructions that has been given to me if i want to change my blog template. haha! silly! silly me~ enough bout the blog.

just now, my cousin's blog really caught my attention. hee. i found it really interesting to be put in home observation and surveillance due to influenza A. of course i just hope everything is okay.

damn. cant believe that im actually missing those dumb people who ditched me over Perhentian Island. darn it. haha! well, kinda jealous too since i cant join them cuz i dont have Mama’s permission to go.

well, here comes the yukky part. haha. i mean it! if u dun want to read it, keep on scrolling~!

last night i was in “jiwang karat” mood. so before i went to bed while on the phone wif my lil devil, i decided to sing a song for him. well, i dun usually sing *lie* due to hoarseness and over-pitching of my voice. haha! so usually i tend to keep my very “beautiful and lovely” voice to myself *yeah right! those screaming n shouting aren’t exactly keeping it to myself* so i sang “Aku Dan Dirimu by Ari Lasso & Bunga Citra Lestari” and in the same time im dedicating the song to him. the lyrics and the timing was just perfect! haha! love it!

here is the lyric. <3

Aku Dan Dirimu by Ari Lasso & Bunga Citra Lestari

tiba saatnya kita saling bicara
tentang perasaan yang kian menyiksa
tentang rindu yang menggebu
tentang cinta yang tak terungkap

sudah terlalu lama kita berdiam
tenggelam dalam gelisah yang tak teredam
memenuhi mimpi-mimpimu malam kita

reff:
duhai cintaku, sayangku, lepaskanlah
perasaanmu, rindumu, seluruh cintamu
dan kini hanya ada aku dan dirimu
sesaat di keabadian

jika sang waktu bisa kita hentikan
dan segala mimpi-mimpi jadi kenyataan
meleburkan semua batas
antara kau dan aku, kita

repeat reff

well guys. ready for some summer action-pack movie Transformers : Revenge Of The Fallen? i bet u do! cuz im OVERLYEXCITED! *wink wink*

p/s – Mama. if u do read this. i hope u will not get angry at me. at least this is one of my way to let out wuts been hiding inside me all along. its like a volcano waiting to erupt. its not that i dont want to tell u. i really do. u know ive been telling u wut happen to me every single time. means no secret ive hide from u at all! plus the fact that u called me 3 times a day when i was in Malacca. its just that lately, wut i wanna share wif u, it will totally backfired. i hate those feelings. so i guess u can figure out the rest. this is my blog and its my freedom to write anything i want. i love u mama. ouh ouh! thx for the “skin food” u bought for me just a minute ago which cost u RM300. =D

While writing this, I was listening to "Aku Dan Dirimu" by Ari Lasso & Bunga Citra Lestari

happy father’s day.

2009-06-22T02:52:00.001+08:00

happy father’s day.

first of all, im not good at words. so i really cant make such dramatic sentence that can make people burst into tears, literally. but this is all from my heart n somehow i wish i can say this straight to ur face. but i still dun have enough courage to do that. so here goes nothing.

baba. u know since i was little, i always adore u. especially when u talk about ur work. how fascinating it was to be a facilitator cuz u look so cool doing it n alot of people know u. somehow makes u famous among ur colleague. n i really found that super awesome.

the other day when i looked back at baby pictures of me. to be honest, i cried. tears r running wild on my cheeks. to see such love that has been given so much to me since i was a baby. words just simply cant even describe wuts running on my mind that time. it was all mixed feelings of love, joy, fun, sadness and happiness of course.

yeah. u once said that we always look up to u as the source of money in the house. haha! well. thats partly true. cuz izzat, haikal n i dont know to appreciate wuts been given to us n seems that we go all around and smash things up. but that was then, when we were too little to notice how hard u’ve work to put food on the table. so i’m really sorry for that. =(

i know baba. we dun talk much. only the necessary one. but i wish i can talk more. u know. have such a deep conversation wif u. its gonna be awkward, obviously but somehow i am still waiting for that moment to happen. =)

ouh, i still remember. u did the family meeting back then. but such ignorant i was, i still remember how stubborn i was and try as hard as i can not to get involve in it. only now i realize how foolish i was cuz only this moment i think it as a way for u to reach to us. regret much? =(

but nevertheless. despite how stubborn, hard-headed, dont-want-to-listen-to-u i was, u still constantly bear wif me, wif ur kids. thank you baba! wait! a million of thank you cant really thank u enough actually, =(

n to that. i, Iklil Izzati binti Rahman Ahmad, ur eldest and one and only daughter would like to wish u, HAPPY FATHER”S DAY, dearest beloved baba. <3

i, we always love love love u from the bottom of our hearts. <3 =’)

smile.

2009-05-29T06:14:00.001+08:00

smile.

Barca won. MU lost. 2-0 i smiled =)

the next day, still smiling the whole entire day =)

on my way back, sleeping. missed Him. so no smile for me =(

reached Pudu, hate the environment. still no smile for me. =(

Lyas fetched at Kelana Jaya Train Station. had some random conversations, scandals, lovers. exes, Paie n his super loser team MU. i smiled =)

meet up wif Deeba and random conversation continues. still smiling =)

Abg Eddy called. he told something that i should hear about from Mama in the first place. started crying =’(

called Him, thought of sharing the news wif him since he has the experience. still crying =’(

eating is one of my way of comforting myself =)

Ajin reached. he really cant be separated from his stupid n lame n funny jokes. laugh till my tummy ache =’) ouh and until someone said “kuatnyer gelak”. pfft. its a free country, arse.

fetch Lina at her hse. went straight to OU. Terminator Salvation was an awesome movie. so my rm11 is so worth it. ouh. not to mention, the long long long Q. =)

Ajin drove his car. ouh dear God. hysterical, i was >.<’’

went to uptown, yet random conversations continue. twilight; old movies; new movies; upcoming movies; transformers (little kitties named Autobots and Decepticons); i love you, man movie; i love you, man actor; role model; american pie; american pie : beta house; unhook bra; aged horse sperm; ~~porn;~~ woops! haha! they make me laugh eventually, despite the bad news that im slowly trying to swallow, digest. =’)

reached home at 0500 hour. =)

i love u guys. =) ouh! ouh! i still miss u, my dear lil devil =(

While writing this, I was listening to "Sugar" by Flo Rida ft. Wynter Gordon

haywire.

2009-05-08T09:35:00.001+08:00

haywire.

honestly, the thing is,

i really dunno wuts going on wif my life right now. no clue at all. cuz all i know right now its like im having a huge pile, tons of bucket of wires tangled up with each other.

and the sad thing is,

its gonna stay that way for awhile.

the funny thing is,

its my life im talking about. why everyone bothers so much about it. why cant they just leave me alone? yes, some are VERY concern about it. and they did ask wuts been going on wif me lately since they NOTICED something is wrong wif me. and i do really, really, really appreciate that alot. makes me realize how i was loved and cared by them. so thanks guys. it means alot to me though. loveLOVElove u all to bits n pieces <3 u know who u r ;)

and guess wut? i just realize that i just cant ignore my feelings too, u know. yes i know. frankly speaking, it is ~~kinda~~ mean. but im torturing myself if i go against wut i really want and wut i really feel.

erm, yeah. so be it. i dun care wut others wanna say or talk about me. n i dun really mind wut the consequences will turn out to be later on. i dun really care, really. cuz wuts done definitely cannot be undone. and in case, you people havent notice, i dun feel comfortable when people "stole" my own personal freedom. so just let me be me awhile ya? <3

~*~ More about Iklil Izzati ~*~

( * ) Loves to chat.

( * ) Loves those who loves them.

( * ) Loves to takes things at the center.

( ) Inner and physical beauty.

( * ) Lies but doesn't pretend.

( * ) Gets angry often.

( * ) Treats friends importantly.

( * ) Always making friends.

( * ) Easily hurt but recovers easily.

( * ) Daydreamer.

( * ) Opinionated.

( * ) Does not care of what others think.

( * ) Emotional.

( ) Decisive.

( ) Strong clairvoyance.

( * ) Loves to travel.

( * ) Touchy and easily jealous.

( * ) Concerned.

( * ) Loves outdoors.

( * ) Just and fair.

( * ) Spendthrift.

( * ) Easily influenced.

( * ) Easily loses confidence.

( * ) Loves children.

p/s: im going MENTAL n i mish my babaganoush <3

While writing this, I was listening to "1234" by Plain White T’s

four.

2009-04-23T12:42:00.001+08:00

four.

”four” is the Chinese “luckiest” number.

“four” is the number of scores between Chelsea and Liverpool.

“four” is also the number of scores between Liverpool and Arsenal.

“four” is my car’s plate number [wka 44].

“four” is also the plate number of the car that im currently driving [wne 444].

“four” is the number of subject im taking this semester.

“four” is the number of paper that someone has to study before the big day.

“four” is the number of my sitting on my very first exam day. [no. 44].

is “four” a sign?

NEAH!

“four” is just a number.

While writing this, I was listening to "Taking Back My Love" by Enrique Iglesias Ft. Ciara

exam.

2009-04-20T16:47:00.001+08:00

exam.

another new day. another new rumors. yes. note the “s” there. nvm. cheers to that. hee.

my examination week began today, but my first paper will start this thursday. OMG!. yes, i admit. i’ve been playing around lately, for the past few days and not even focusing on my studies. y is this laziness in me just wont heal? any medicine?

haha! IM SO DARN LAZY! okay. okay. enuf whining iklil. n START STUDYING! *ngee. i look exactly like that emoticon when i start to open my notes* haha!

While writing this, I was listening to "Don't Trust Me" by 3OH!3

listen.

2009-04-12T13:02:00.001+08:00

listen.

listen to me. listen to my heart. listen to my crying heart. stop whatever u’re doing. stop whatever u’re thinking. JUST STOP! dun u know it hurts? yes. it HURTS. it really HURTS!. ure not only hurting me. but others as well including urself. and especially THAT person. we are who we are claim to be. dun judge us if u dun even know. dun judge us by wut people think about us. dun judge us by wut u hear. if u dun wanna listen to wut i say, then dun judge. DUN EVER JUDGE!

u claim u trust me. but trusting me by not even showing it? how bullshit is that?

they claim they wanna protect u n keep u safe. by even making u go crazier over it n change the way how u look at me?

a little disappointed. but u know. life goes on. =)

im still gonna put a smile on my face no matter wut. no matter how it hurts. =)

and thx to this little incident, i promise i will try my best not no hurt my sunshine who always, always ALWAYS brightens up my day after a stormy night. <3 *thx for being the most understanding creature on earth*

p/s- Happy Bday Olin! i know u dun know me, but happy birthday dear.

While writing this, I was listening to "Halo" by Beyonce

sunset.

2009-03-27T01:58:00.001+08:00

sunset.

i was in melancholic mood today. cant get out of my bed. basically i cant do anything except lying bed on my bed the whole entire time, sleeping. i even skipped my classes for no reason. wait till my mother hears this. >.<’’ so when it was around 5pm. then only i have the urge to wake up and pack my things and go home.

so when i was driving back home alone, i was accompanied by this very beautiful sunset throughout my entire journey. okay not entirely. but yeah. i departed from my hostel around 6.30pm and the sunset was utterly looking beautiful at exact 7pm. dang, i wish i had a picture of it. but unfortunately there were so many cars on the road. and not to mention they were waaaaaay crazy drivers. so i cant basically stopped my car and take a picture of it. plus, the LORRIES!!! haha. get the picture? i hope so.

reach my beloved home town at exact 7.45 pm. on my way home, i decided to celebrate my beloved auntie's bday. so i stop by at the nearest Secret Recipe and grab a slice of Caramel Cream Cheese. yummy!

this is my beloved aunty Nora. i called her “Nyanya”

and take a look at this cutie!

at first i thought? who is this new kid? and the worst thing was, who is this BOY? OMG! so sorry my dear. it was actually a “she” and not “he”. maybe the color of her shirt deceived me! haha! this my friend, is my ~~niece.~~ i wish. she is my baby cousin and her name is Maisarah Aminah. indeed, a classic name for her.

arrived at my house around 9.30pm. mama was shocked wif my new baby, Miz Rebelicious the 450D Canon Camera. haha! and as usual, few new bags that i did not recognize before are looking pretty at the living room. this time round, Fendi bag is in the family yet with another new Coach bags.

alrighty folks. need to sleep now. kinda excited and nervous for my full body check-up tomorrow morning. hehe! and for those who are having their test tomorrow. gd luck and all the best! :D

While writing this, I was listening to "Only Holding On" by Eyes Set To Kill

coincidence.

2009-03-25T23:48:00.001+08:00

coincidence.

u know wut i’ve descovered for the past few days?

“NOTHING IS COINCIDENCE”

yes. nothing is coincidence. i’ve watched 2 movies last few days which are “Kung Fu Panda” and “A Walk To Remember” in a row. and i found that!. those 2 movies just make me realize there is no such thing as coincidence and wuteva happens or whoever u bump into. it was like meant to be. there is no accident. wut i meant was not a car-crash-accident, mind u. its just being highlighted and make me startled for awhile. *there goes my mind wondering*

and, in “The Five People You Meet in Heaven”, a novel by Mitch Albom, which i read that novel years ago, it also emphasize how u were destined to met people around u. u will encounter people who significantly affected ur life, whether u realize it at the time or not. each imparts a divine piece of wisdom unto u, instilling a deeper comprehension regarding the most intimate facets of life. *taken and edited from wikipedia* so no matter how small or big the impact that person gave u, they also play some role and it became as part of ur life.

embrace wuteva God has gave u. accept it with open heart and open mind.

so i just wanna say to whoever felt unimportant here on earth to realize, finally, how much they mattered and how they were loved.

this is just another note to self and others who read this as well =)

While writing this, I was listening to "Give You My All" by Eyes Set To Kill

wonder woman.

2009-03-21T03:32:00.001+08:00

wonder woman.

hello. hye. bye. o.O?

i wonder how can someone forgot to tell that he’s married? isn't it suppose to be a joyous event in ur entire life and u’re really excited and can’t wait to tell the whole world about it?

yes. en Zam. im talking about u. u meanie. ouh btw, en. Zam is my math lecturer. he happens to forgot to tell his students that he’s getting married? euw. was on the phone with him earlier on. and the reason why he didnt told us was that becuz i didnt attend his class the last time he came to teach us in MiCoST. “since he cant personally hand in his invitation card to me, so he decided not to tell EVERYONE !!” euw.

*edited* i forgot. CONGRATULATIONS to EN. ZAMZURI (o.O) and wife

OMG! IM SO BLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODY BORED! *help*

While writing this, I was listening to "Wonder Woman" by Mulan Jameela

someday we’ll know.

2009-03-19T16:56:00.001+08:00

someday we’ll know.

ouh how i miss all of u so much. the tears we shed. the not-so-funny-things we laughed at. the argues we had. the long conversation over the telephone during the night until mama fainted when she saw the bills. ouh how i missed it all~

the cakes we baked, over-baked. the cookies we made. the celebrations we celebrated. i miss each and every single bit of it.

but why?

why are we growing apart ?

why are we so distant ?

why are we so far ?

why aren’t u here with me ?

sigh~

where were u when i was alone ?

where were u when im lonely ?

where were u when i need ur hug ?

where were u when i need ur shoulder ?

okay. that was very selfish of me.

where was i when ure alone ?

where was i when ure lonely ?

where was i when u need my hug ?

where was i when u need my shoulder ?

sigh~

i dunno. im clueless to be exact. so many questions, yet so little time to answer.

but.

maybe someday i’ll know.

maybe someday u’ll know.

maybe someday we’ll know.

definitely.

but i forgot!

there always is a rainbow after a storm.

and i’ve found my rainbow ;)

even though u freaked out a lil bit when i called u ;P

thx for letting me let it out to u.

thx for the patience.

thx for the time.

thx for just being there.

thx mr.rainbow! u light up my day after a stormy night.

like they say,

everything happens for a reason right?

but i need no reason for u to happen.

muahxx <3

Tribute to ASLARIDS.

ouh, of course my dearest Nur Lina Radzi, u made a huge influence on me, just to make me who i am today. love u to bits <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Someday We'll Know" by Mandy Moore

a walk to remember.

2009-03-19T01:43:00.003+08:00

a walk to remember.

March, 18 2009.

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon (yea)
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in September
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was now that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one will find...

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
(forever was in your eyes)
It was now that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
Baby cry
The moment that I saw you cry
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry

Fade out
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you

Cry – Mandy Moore

happy 21st bday Lan <3

and you too Shakireen Asri @ Kiwi <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Cry (A Walk To Remember soundtrack)" by Mandy Moore

impressed.

2009-03-17T02:50:00.001+08:00

impressed.

ouh how i am so impressed wif a 14 years old boy named Ruzain came to my store earlier on and asked me a few questions about “what’s hot and what’s not” on fashion. okay. exaggerate abit. he just asked me about “Batik” design since he’s trying to sell his design that mostly are heavy on Batik. all the best kiddo!

nothing much. work as usual. mama called to show how frustrated she was cuz she’s still undecided where should izzat further his studies after this. poor mama.

closed my shop around 9.45pm after i alter the punch card clock.

went for my badminton training. had a blast there. teamed up wif Lan against Qila and Aceng. we won after 3 sets of friendly game! woot!

hee. it was awesomely fun. LOL! xD . cuz most of the time Lan and i were shouting, screaming and jumping like a monkey who just escaped from the zoo.

went to Sharrinah as usual, grab Roti Bom as my supper and drank 2 glasses of milo and now IM FULL & BLOATED off to bed now. nitey nite <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Violent Kiss" by Eyes Set To Kill

outing.

2009-03-16T02:20:00.001+08:00

outing.

i’ve been testing out my new baby for quite a few days now and here are the most precious shot taken by my baby.

Life at the Mamak Stall.

Bandar Hilir.

Randomness.

absolutely love my new baby!

While writing this, I was listening to "Reach" by Eyes Set To Kill

hello 450D.

2009-03-12T17:34:00.001+08:00

hello 450D.

meet my new baby.

its the brand new Canon EOS 450D.

of course this wouldn't happen without the help of :-

Nyanya (my aunty), Najat u know y i laugh dun u my dear, and of course Mama (without u noticing it, u did help me wif this, but of course busted just now).

And to all my darling friends Lan, Qila, Reza and Fathi who accompanied me just now!

Here are the pictures taken wif my new baby <3 (non edited)

and of course! the best picture for today is..

loveLOVElove u Lani <3

While writing this, I was listening to "Reach" by Eyes Set To Kill

missing.

2009-03-12T02:42:00.001+08:00

missing.

ouh how i miss them.

miss playing Hercules on play station while u play with ur computer. miss changing cheats. miss the ride on our bike to exchange the cheats.

miss playing digimon. miss playing digimon with cheats. miss that particular guy who make the cheat works for me.

miss buying 20 cents ice cream in a bundle. miss eating 20 cents ice creams.

miss playing pokemon cards. miss collecting pokemon cards. miss spending big $$$ on pokemon cards.

miss playing gameboy. miss playing gameboy colour. miss playing gameboy advance.

miss playing traditional games with all of u. miss playing “Ting-Ting”. miss playing with the marbles.

miss playing Barbie doll. miss cross-stitching.

miss playing “Police and Thief”. miss swimming in the swimming pool. miss playing with the water gun. miss climbing the trees. miss the bicycle rides. miss the bicycle races.

miss fighting with all of u. miss arguing with all of u.

thx o-Lan ;) u’ve brought back my sweet childhood memories =)

While writing this, I was listening to "A Boy Brushed Red Living in Black And White" by Underoath

musix.

2009-03-11T14:01:00.001+08:00

musix.

music moves me. haha! *TESTED AND PROVEN*

but how come studies don't?

urgh.

While writing this, I was listening to "Dear God" by Avenged Sevenfold

desire.

2009-03-11T13:29:00.001+08:00

desire.

my beloved mama just bought me my 3rd Coach bag.

its called Coach Legacy Stripe Tote. she bought it thru her online friend at a bargain price, RM1200 which is slightly cheaper cuz some people still sell it at RM1400 and above and i just simply love love LOVE this bag. its colorful, fresh and funky. well my brothers also got their Coach swing pack too.

Izzat got

while, Haikal got

and both cost RM450 each.

well, the reason i post this is not cuz i want to brag about the price or wuteva. its just a motivation for me to repay wut my mom has done to me, her sacrifices to us, all her 3 beloved children. we love u mama!! but we will love u more if u give us more! haha! just kidding! i love u mama! always!

miss u mama

While writing this, I was listening to "Mama" by Spice Girls

Maulid Prophet Muhammad's Birthday

2009-03-09T17:34:00.001+08:00

Maulid Prophet Muhammad's Birthday

today in Muslim calendar is 12th Rabi-ul-Awwal and the date is the holy Prophet Muhammad’s birthday. and same goes to me cuz i share the same birthday as Him. its shameful that i didn't resemble Him AT ALL !! anyway, may this blessful day is filled with His love to all Muslims especially to Palestinian in Gaza.

happy bday to me =)

ouh! thx nyanya for the bday wishes and wan (grandma) too =)

"And peace on him on the day he was born, and on the day he dies, and on the day he is raised to life" Holy Quran 19:15

wonderfool days.

2009-03-09T12:25:00.001+08:00

wonderfool days.

last friday, my day was running smoothly as i planned, which i’m supposed to skipped my work due to a disease called lazy. went to Dataran Pahlawan with Mimi and Ira to get new shirts for tomorrow’s gig. i bought a shirt from DC Super Heroes retail outlet which has a printed villain character from the latest Dark Knight movie and also my hero, The Joker. bought this shirt as a tribute to Heath Ledger, RIP and that shirt cost me RM89.90. its quite expensive for me cuz its only an ordinary black, short sleeve t-shirt with a printed picture on it. but its also unique cuz it can be worn inside-out and has 2 different designs on a single T-shirt. but the part that i love the most is the printed famous saying of his “Why so serious?”

then we followed Ira to retrieve her phone from the Sony Ericson centre. after that, went to F.O.S to buy Mimi’s shirt. i was overwhelmed when Ira showed me a 3/4 hooded knitted top. its so cute and i decided to get for myself a black color since Ira wanted the pink one. unfortunately, since Ira is so skinny like a stick (sorry Ira) the top didnt fit her although she tried the S size. bought mine for RM25. and i decided straight away to wear that black, starry 3/4 hooded knitted top since the current shirt im wearing was making me feel a little bit uncomfortable.

time flies when we were there and it was already 8.30pm. we rushed back cuz Mimi and i needed to be at Proclaim My Victory (PMV) jamming session and need to get Sarah, Wan’s bass back at our hostel. as usual i drove like a maniac. nothing much there except making my ear deaf-er.

went back to hostel after dinner with the PMVs and their “crew”. najat called and as usual, he make me lost my patience and i slammed my NOKIA N81 8G to the floor and the LCD crashed. i became more mad than before since all my contacts are there and i sort of cant live without it. but ouh well, what's done definitely cannot be undone. and now i have to face the fact that im phoneless although i have my very antique SAMSUNG phone which practically cant do anything cuz it keeps turning off by itself.

and i decided to go out wif Qila along with Lan, Reza and Fifi to release my tension. we went out and we spend most of our time chit-chatting at Subaidah, a mamak stall at Bandar Hilir. its a good way to release tension really. since im phoneless, no more calls from him but unfortunately he managed to get to me thru Lan. bummer! reached hostel around 6am i guess. not really aware of the time. too sleepy went upstairs and straight away find my comfy bed

the next morning, i got statistic class that i have to attend to but as usual, due to lack of sleep, yet again my lazy disease strikes me cuz i was half awake when Rasyiqah woke me up. so i continued my beauty sleep till 2pm. once i woke up, Mimi was ready for the gig but i asked her to take my car if she wants it and i’ll follow her later since i have to show Lan the way to the gig.

Here is some of the pictures taken during the gig. and to be honest i was sweating like a pig inside there cuz the studio is damn hot.

the gig ended roughly around 10pm and after took some precious and memorable pictures with those who attend the gig. we went to D’Santai right after that to get our dinner. its was really an enjoyable moment cuz we spend most of our time karaoke-ing since the stall turn on its karaoke set complete with big screen projector and lyrics on every song but sadly there's no microphone

i miss going to the cinema, so i straight away called Qila and asked her to join me and Lan to go to GSC Dataran Pahlawan. after picked Qila and Reza, we head straight to Bandar Hilir. we were lucky enough to catch Marley and Me cuz by the time we arrived there, the movie was just started. lucky us

the ending for the movie was bloody sad and i cried till my eyes turn bloody red. seriously! it was a really touching and deep movie and how an animal can really change your life. *okay, still wanna cry till now* its amazing how precious and beautiful is the relationship between a pet and its owner. no matter how naughty or troublesome the pet is, the owner would still love them. just like my dearest “poyo”. right poyo?

i miss u poyo <3

ouh not forget to mention, Marley! :D

then from Bandar Hilir, Lan drove us all till Pantai Puteri. hurm. fresh beach air. miss that too. went shisha for a bit till i almost knocked myself out by just a few puff. then reach hostel around 6am. “home sweet home”

While writing this, I was listening to "Reach" by Eyes Set To Kill

always & forever.

2009-03-04T15:19:00.000+08:00

yes sayang. the quote says it all. i know i’ve been acted a bit strange lately. not to mention the “lost of interest” to be in love with you. yes. i did feel that way before. but as i promised. i will find my way back eventually. in this hay-wire situation, i can say that i’m lost in my own world. i’ve forgotten who i am. who i used to be. i still love you. but just bear with me. cuz no matter how long the journey will take me, u’re always, always and forever my destination.

~*~ Memoirs of My Unwritten Memories ~*~

Ouh rindu.

Alejandro.

Mencarut!

Ku Juga Mencintaimu.

Right Here Waiting.

Marah.

He's back!

Suka.

Kau harus ada.

Zen.

Show me.

Music.

Rindu.

Shooting Star.

Sagil.

Kepanasan.

Miserable.

1 2 3 4 5.

Teruja.

Testing.

judge me (if u dare!).

sedar x sedar.

sick.

me + you = us.

bodoh.

kurang genius.

happy drug.

MTV World Stage.

g.i. joe-ing.

asam pedas.

roda itu bulat.

my fave quote collection. #1

straightforward.

special thanks to Mak Ngah (Aunty) and family.

back to bottom.

nenek.

fever and H1N1.

special thanks to people of Hospital Melaka.

Pengalaman org yg ade family dijangkiti H1N1. Untuk panduan bersama.

which one? help me find my answer.

What’s better? A lie that draws a smile, or the truth that draws a tear?

sad truth.

stress.

sweet dreams.

sigh.

tagged by kak taro.

thank you.

hari gado sedunia.

prepaid.

outing.

mcd.

jog.

happy 17th bday deeba.

spring cleaning.

sunyi.

a letter to MJ.

**Smile, though your heart is aching. Smile, even though its breaking**

lost.

pack.

BAD.

RIP MJ.

empty.

baba. (part 1)

editing.

happy father’s day.

smile.

haywire.

four.

exam.

listen.

sunset.

coincidence.

wonder woman.

someday we’ll know.

a walk to remember.

impressed.

outing.

hello 450D.

missing.

~~ Memoirs of My Unwritten Memories ~~

Smile, though your heart is aching. Smile, even though its breaking