baba. (part 1)

baba. (part 1)

well, today im off to malacca for some unfinished business. its not really that important though. its just that i tend to procrastinate ALOT. n alot means alot okay. ngee. cuz i need to find a repairman to fix my bloody fan in my room. cuz ive been suffering for having such a wonderful looking ceiling fan that only looks pretty and complete the necessary needs for every room and the most wonderful part is that its not working!! not functioning!! been complaining to the college but end up suffering for 1 whole year already. so mama generously said that she’ll pay for the fixing expanses. so hopefully i’ll sleep comfortably soon! hee

plus its spring cleaning time! my room desperately in need of that! haha! u have no idea wut might be living underneath my bed. hee. i guess i know wuts running in ur mind right now *ishk. iklil nieh sungguh x senonoh* haha! ouh well. thats y they call me lazybumbum for nothing right?

well, before i go, obviously i need to pack my stuff. haha. back pain!! need to filled up my super humongous luggage wif all my clothes. i hate packing. truly hate it. urgh. then, i accompany baba take his lunch. he eats very slowly, and the thing that really kills me inside was when i saw his hands shaking when hes about to put food in his mouth. shaking when hes about to take “lauk” and put in his plate. shaking when hes about to drink from his mug. yeah. i feel like i wanna help him somehow but i know baba. hes really independent. n he will try his best not to rely on others. so basically i cant do anything. or i will get scolded for free! i dunno about u guys but i can feel his pain. thats because my body tends to shake vigorously when i feel hungry. erm. not really hungry la. sometimes my body shakes when my stomach is empty. haha. and it is really PAIN! i repeat. PAIN! when my body is shaking. i cant eat properly. my jaw is like not functional properly. so i have the difficulty to munch, to chew and sometimes swallow. so there u go. thats y when i see baba in that condition. it truly tear my heart out. honestly, when i saw that, i almost cried. but that time obviously i have to control myself. haha. so i just watch him finish his food slowly. then, i prepared his warm goat milk before i departed as told by aunty enon.

 

While writing this, I was listening to "Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say)" by Lady GaGa